Nov 04 2025 November 4, 2025 November 4, 2025 NoComment by Eden

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6 Breakthroughs made by the Ancient Greeks

Some of these are completely insane. It baffles me how people who didn’t have the scientific instruments and information we have gathered since the Enlightenment were able to figure this stuff out. How the guy who pretty accurately calculated the earth’s circumference 2,060 years ago by using shadows and a weird measurement system called “stadia” is mind boggling. He was almost right. Ancient people are not given enough credit. Note; that site is advert ridden. They really want that ad revenue. Like really. It may be crammed with annoying ads, but the articles are often very much worth reading, especially if you like to learn odd historical facts. Just a warning haha

People also have this weird idea that the ancients didn’t know about each other and didn’t interact, which is silly. I’m talking about Europeans, Asians, Arabs etc. They think these people didn’t communicate. They traded, learned from one another, and of course, fought 😬 Trinkets from far, far away have been found in Viking burial sites. There’s many more examples of things like that. History is cool. I’ve forgotten more than I’ve learned, if that’s possible 😅 I feel like I want to relearn a lot of things, but I worry that I don’t have the brain power to do so. Maybe once I find out what’s wrong with me, I can do something about it and possibly regain my memory. Like I wrote before, I’m trying to get off the meds that destroyed my brain. Then, maybe I can learn again since the damage seems not to be permanent in most cases. Okay, not going to get into that now. No more negativity today. 🫠

I’ve always been really interested in the Bronze Age, maybe I should do some recreational reading, but nothing too dry and academic. I’m not looking for a lecture lol. Give it some levity. 👌

The only dry, academic thing I’ve ever liked is Early Music, both sacred and secular. I wouldn’t really call it totally dry, but the reenactors take it pretty seriously, with as accurate as possible period costume and exclusively accurate period instruments. Truly beautiful music. Do recommend. In NC, we have Carolina Pro Musica and sometimes I wish I could be involved somehow but I have none of the necessary skills to be of use. I always wanted a Hurdy Gurdy since I discovered this type of music, but they go for about $1500 because the nice ones are handmade by someone who specialises in period instruments or even just Hurdy Gurdies alone. They make the most beautiful droning sound, like something you would imagine hearing in a candlelit medieval tavern. Some people say it reminds them of certain medieval set video game soundtracks. Here is my favourite Hurdy gurdy composition on YouTube by far

It’s an original composition by Andrey Vinogradov. Guy’s a genius. The comments are freakin gold!

Holy crap WordPress just glitched out on me and almost made me lose my post! I am seriously considering switching to greymatter since someone updated it for modern times and put it on GitHub. lol “modern times”, did I really just say that? Am I that old? 😭 Anyhoo Greymatter is the first script I used for a self-hosted blog in 2003, so it was obviously extremely outdated and had tons of safety concerns and wouldn’t have worked on any php version still available. It was extremely popular at that time, and most people used it for blogs hosted on personal domains. I’m excited to check out what kind of updates were made or if any features were added. I haven’t gotten around to that yet. WordPress is so bloated and glitches sometimes, but the one just now was probably the worst. I do wonder how updated Greymatter handles media, because the original had nothing of the sort. New Greymatter has the ability to import WordPress posts. When I was using it, there were no “themes”, you had to make the layout yourself, basically it was just code snippets/inserts. Very simple. It was very similar to how we used to make custom Livejournal layouts, of which I made many for both myself and friends.

Ah, I have rambled and gone on a stream of consciousness again. At least it’s positive and about things I enjoy ☺️


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Nov 03 2025 November 3, 2025 November 4, 2025 NoComment by Eden

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I started feeling crappy last night.

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Nov 02 2025 November 2, 2025 November 2, 2025 NoComment by Eden

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I renewed one of my domains a few days ago. This particular domain extension is regulated by a European country I believe, and has an odd renewal process. It will expire 6 or 7 days before the expiration date, which makes NO sense, but whatever, it’s theirs, they can do what they want with it. I pay it the first of November to avoid that problem, as the expiration date is towards the end of the month. Anyhow, when I paid for it, I generally use PayPal because it’s directly connected to my bank account… this time I forgot to tick “PayPal” and instead paid by card. A bit later I realised it didn’t show on my bank app. I went back and looked at the last four digits of the card it used, and I don’t recognise it. I don’t think any of mom’s cards are in there, don’t know why they would be…unless she helped me out at some point and I don’t remember. I asked her to look at her banking site and let me know if $30something came out. She said nope. The fuck? Who paid for it? It has to be one of hers. I was worried I would get an email saying the payment didn’t actually go through and mess up my domain somehow. I haven’t. I’m concerned and very confused lol whose money did I steal

I write about the most boring shit haha

I got approved for some fanlistings I had wanted previously, and two that I owned 8 or 9 years ago. I don’t still have the member lists for one of the two I previously owned, luckily a friend who had adopted it from me and closed it a while later still had the sql! Now I have to gather the energy to get on my damn laptop which I haven’t touched in at least a couple of months. I don’t want to but I’ll do it…soon. *procrastinates as usual* I mean I love fanlistings, I love owning them but it’s gotten harder in the last few years. I’ve had this as an on and off hobby since 2004 when I made my first fl. I wish I still had that energy and dedication. I’m not going to let them get on troubles and close. I’ve wanted to own the fl for Stonehenge for a long time, and it recently became open to apply for because the previous owner neglected it or something. I 💜 megaliths!

My body feels like it did when I ran out of Lyrica and mom didn’t tell me because I’d freak out. CVS just would not fill it! I was absolutely miserable and told mom “I don’t think the Lyrica is working anymore!” Then she told me I’d run out. I didn’t have it for around two weeks and that period of time sucked. I feel like when I didn’t take it, maybe a little worse. Everything hurts. I feel like it’s mostly fiery nerve pain, but also my rotator cuffs and the worn down messed up vertebrae in my neck. I forgot which ones they were, c-6 and c-7 maybe. Or c-5 could have been one. Well, whichever they are, THEY SUCK, HARD. I wish someone could fix it, but dad has had both neck and back surgery and it did NOT go well, sooooo. 😅 There has to be something I can do to lessen the pain but I don’t know what that is.


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Nov 01 2025 November 1, 2025 November 1, 2025 NoComment by Eden

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Nothing special for hallowe’en this year, only saw like three kids out trick or treating after dark. For shame! 😬 I did have a wicked headache when I went to bed at around 8 that morning (told you my sleep schedule is backwards!) so I popped two Aleve and laid there, unable to find any position that would help the pain. I swear it felt like my eyeballs were gonna launch from their sockets. Everything else hurt too, including my neck, but goddam. I couldn’t go five seconds without repositioning my stupid head. I have no clue how I got to sleep even though it took forever. I woke up at 3-ish and it was even worse. Mom got here and I got up and “dressed” (zombie shirt, South Park pajama pants, lilo & stitch slip ons 😂 fucking visualise that.) and decided we’d just pick up food and eat at her house, because I was not fit to go to a restaurant, obviously. I realised a bit later that my headache was gone. When I went to bed at 6 this morning, after feeding and medicating the beast, I felt it starting to come back behind my eyes. I hollered “OH GOD PLEASE NO” which I’m pretty sure my neighbour heard. Laid down, because what else am I gonna do, I have to sleep. It didn’t come back, the eye pain faded away and I was able to sleep. I’m almost certain that was some kind of migraine considering how long it lasted and the intensity of the pain. My face and scalp were so tender! When I have headaches, I usually rub my temples and other spots on my face & head, but oh boy did it hurt this time.🥺 Odd, because I don’t remember the last time I had a migraine. I started having them when I was 12 I think, but it stopped being bad after a few years. I then only had them sporadically for many years after that, then they sort of petered out. This also felt like there was a lot of pressure involved. Pressure headaches suck! It had to have been a migraine, though, because it was so persistent and the fact that my go-to pain pills did nothing.

I wrote entirely too much about that, it’s like I have to over explain everything lol. Boring read, I know.

Yesterday did not feel like Hallowe’en to me. That was disappointing. It’s always disappointing. I used to feel it in the air around me. I haven’t felt that feeling in quite a while, I really miss it. Things felt different, but in a good way. I look back on that and wonder wtf happened and why can’t I feel the difference in the air anymore.

I almost sent mom’s shirt back, but she saw it and wouldn’t let me. I was so torn up about not being able to find what I wanted in long sleeves, even though I think Woot! Offered long sleeves for that shirt but it wouldn’t be in the woman’s fit, so I didn’t know what the fuck to do?! I kept tearing up about it the whole night. But she likes it. I just hope that wasn’t performative, to save my feelings or whatever. I don’t know if I’ll get her anything else. That stressed me out way too much. Mom is so goddam hard to shop for. Dad is super easy. I know what kind of shirts he likes for the most part. I was surprised he liked my “I have rabies” shirt as much as he did, he’s got very few “text” shirts. I always get him band shirts. I knew he’d think it was funny, but I didn’t know he’d want one for himself 😂  He doesn’t know I’m getting it, but mom told me he definitely wanted that shirt. I’m always happy to accept someone into the rabid raccoon club…*foams at the mouth*

It’s so nice to not have a lot of debt anymore. I consolidated into $100 a month payments to mom, which she passed on to my uncle who loaned her the money. I feel like I can breathe again. I have one affirm plan left and I’ll have another because of Christmas gifts but that’s fine. I have paid off the majority of that credit card. I’m not doing it totally at once. That would have been like throwing $100 into the freaking void! It’s physically painful to pay into a card knowing I can’t use the money and it’s gone forever. I’ll probably have it paid off next month or in January. Depends on how I feel.

Id better hurry and order some shirts. I got one at the beginning of last month that still hasn’t gotten here. About 25 days after I ordered, they shipped it! It’s coming from Spain, but I’ve gotten a number of things from Spain and they have never taken that long. I’m scared my gifts will come after Christmas as they have a couple of times before.

Well, I have to feed and shot the beast in…five minutes. Later, internet!


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Oct 28 2025 October 28, 2025 October 29, 2025 NoComment by Eden

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Oh god I’m so relieved!! I thought I accidentally overdrew my account last night while paying off Affirm and Klarna bills. I really thought I was gonna wind up  $100-200 in the red! I went to the bank and they are so helpful. That’s why I love Telco. They do not get annoyed with me even though I misunderstand stuff and ask for help sometimes. The lady that helped me explained some things about the app that I just couldn’t understand for whatever dumb reason and assured me I wasn’t overdrawn. I have $143 left, actually and just used $100 of it to pay off half my credit card.

I’m using $20 to get a friggin buzz when Lauren comes to get me. My hair is driving me bonkers, it’s doing the thing where it forms a literal POINT on top of my head and it looks so stupid. I don’t know why that’s the default state of my hair once it grows out too much, and there’s no way to comb it down either. Can’t wait to be rid of that 😅

The vet assistant actually did have an emergency yesterday and that’s why she didn’t come pick up Oscar. I hope no animals were harmed. She’s supposed to be here to get him any time now. I just wanna put my jammies on and eat dinner but I’m having to wait. I need to be cozy in my jammies and eat my delicious chick-fil-a which is still in the bag.

Ah, she just came and took him. Shouldn’t take long, it’s just a sugar check. That reminds me I still need to get a sugar kit on Amazon. They’re made specifically for cats.

Im still pissed about the Albanese Joy Division shirt kerfluffle 😂 I wanna tell them how dumb they are (Sky News Australia I mean as well as commenters who bought the bullshit) but I hate hate HATE arguing on the internet. So, so much. I hate drama and never start it myself, ever.

Anyhoo

Mom was driving me home Sunday night, and one of my favourite songs came on. “Richard Hung Himself” by D.I., a punk band. The song is from 1983 and played a big part in the soundtrack to the movie Suburbia. She said “Richard hung himself?! I thought I was hearing it wrong until I saw the title!” It was funny, guess you had to be there 😅 I explained the song and she wasn’t offended or anything lol. My mom is 75 and we listen to my music together almost every day. I swear this woman has been exposed to far more music than most 75 year old moms. She says she likes the majority of what I play, mostly the goth stuff. That’s pretty cool. She’s 75, but she’s what I would call a rocker, even though she looks nothing like that. I’m really hoping she’ll wear the super cool T-shirts I’m getting her for Christmas, even though they have short sleeves. I got her a very subtle Wednesday Addams shirt that says “I don’t evolve, I cocoon.” She likes the Addams Family, but I really got it because of the cocoon reference. Every day when she drives me home, I say “Go home and cocoon.” 😬 That’s what we call putting on a blanket and curling up on the couch, which is her favourite part of the day lol. I still haven’t entirely decided on dads shirts. Mom is getting that one, The Beatles, and Queen. Dad is getting “I have rabies” and…lmao I forgot which ones I had in mind besides that. I get stupider by the day, I swear. Maybe I should get him a Queen shirt as well, all three of us are Queen fans so I know he’d like it. Hmmm

So Friday is Hallowe’en/Samhain. We go out to eat on Friday nights, but I don’t know if we’ll go anyplace special. I’m really hoping I see kids trick or treating on the streets rather than those stupid “Trunk or Treats” they have at Churches,  because I feel like churches killed Halloween at least around here! I feel resentment for that. Even if they’re just trick or treating at the stores in downtown, at least they’re out. Nobody goes house to house anymore, which I find depressing. It also makes me feel so thankful that I did most of my growing up in the 90s when trick or treating was normal. I usually had a friend with me and even though we were young, my parents gave us space and lagged quite a distance behind, while still keeping their eyes on us. It was a wonderful experience as a kid and was SO different than it is now. Kids go out only in the daylight now, and sometimes not even on Hallowe’en, which is just lame. The city council determines when the stores hand out candy 🙄 No such thing when I was a kid, and we always went out ON Hallowe’en, didn’t matter if we had school the next day. We also went out towards dusk and stayed out probably until 9 or 10pm. People seem to be allergic to that kind of fun now. It’s more fun in the dark 😸 I’m so glad I had a normal, non-sterilised experience. I did wind up in a church one Hallowe’en though, which was a godawful experience 😂 I wrote about that at some point. They also didn’t give us candy. Today, that experience would probably count as some kind of child abuse 🤣 haha

Oscar just got back and I have to reduce his insulin to 1.5 units, which can’t be done with a lantus pen. I am not yet comfortable with syringes. I’m scared I’d accidentally give him too much and kill my own cat. The vet assistant told me which kind to buy at Walmart and said she’d stop by tomorrow and show me exactly how to use it. It sucks to not use the lantus pen anymore because it was so simple. I’m afraid I’ll have to buy insulin as well, because it’s about $100 for one bottle even though it lasts for months. That means I’ll have to make more claims on his insurance. I haven’t even made the first claim yet because I have to make a video and I’m scared I’ll say something wrong and they’ll deny me. I’m asking Lauren to help me do that tomorrow. She’s very proactive and structured and I love that about her. Makes my life so much easier, and even better, more productive. Doing things I’ve been meaning to do for a while but procrastinated on. Anyhow when I got his insurance I had no clue that making a claim would require a video and various other things, which is something that should have been disclosed! Ahhh I don’t wanna. But I must.

Well, I’m finally in my jammies and under a blanket and my delicious magic chicken sandwiches await me. Have a good one, internet.


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Oct 28 2025 October 28, 2025 October 28, 2025 NoComment by Eden

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I just got done paying off all my debt I could. I’m afraid I might have overdrawn, I hope not. All the charges are listed in my banking app. I once again don’t know if the pending charges are included in my balance. That irks the hell out of me. I’m definitely not going to be able to pay off that credit card. I think I’ll pay $50 into it monthly instead of $25, so it’ll be paid off in three months rather than six. I also owe mom that $200.

All this money stuff confuses me. But to be fair, everything confuses me.

I canceled my physical therapy appointment for today. I don’t see the point, and I’ve never put much stock into it. My insurance will only pay for a few visits anyway, so I don’t see any reason to bother with it. My arms and neck are getting worse, unfortunately for me.


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Oct 28 2025 October 28, 2025 October 28, 2025 NoComment by Eden

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I just saw a video in which some politician (Albanese I think?) wore a fucking Joy Division shirt and some morons are giving him grief about it because of their name.

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Oct 28 2025 October 28, 2025 October 28, 2025 NoComment by Eden

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BIG SHRIMPIN’! 😬

He’s become fond of that white shirt, been sleeping on it for a week.

 

 


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Oct 27 2025 October 27, 2025 October 27, 2025 NoComment by Eden

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Well, I got $1450 from my uncle, thank god. I’ve paid off some things already. I can’t feel happy about it though, because mom just acted a fool today. I did too, but she acted so damn petulant because we had to run back to the bank because we both forgot something important. Like…just because you don’t want to do something doesn’t mean you don’t need to! She’s been around and has infinitely more life experience than I have, so I would think she would understand that??? Apparently not, I guess. The thing was my banking app was messed up and has been since I applied for a loan with them. They fixed it in three minutes. If I couldn’t access the app to see how much I have and how much I’ve spent so far, it’s gonna be difficult to pay my debt!! I dunno…she had a hissy fit when I said oh crap we need to go back, then angrily pulled out of the parking space, gritting her teeth and was acting like a goddam toddler. I was like “What is your freaking problem?!” And we had a huge argument. I swear, this woman can take an absolutely wonderful thing and suck the joy right out of it. It’s fucking pitiful. I do not understand why she acts like this. Sometimes we get along, this was not one of those days.

The vet assistant who was supposed to pick Oscar up around 5:30 never showed up. Called and got the “we’re closed right now and will open blah blah blah” message. I don’t know if she forgot or had some kind of emergency. I hope not an emergency! That’s never good. I guess I’ll call them tomorrow. She was supposed to come here, take him to the vet (which is literally 500 ft from where I live) check his sugar and bring him back. I had him in the carrier, waiting…no call or anything.

I am in such a bad freakin mood now. 🫩


Oct 26 2025 October 26, 2025 October 26, 2025 NoComment by Eden

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*watching trip reports on YouTube*

Oh goody, a Datura story! I love those. I have never heard anyone speak of a positive Datura trip. They always sound fucking terrible! WHY do people fuck with this plant, I mean who wants to ingest something nicknamed “hells bells”?! 😅

This particular guy saw a black hole in his ceiling which he thought would suck him in, something about swimming in black goo of varying viscosities, and finding his clothing in the freezer, mattress in the kitchen, and ham on the wall after the trip subsided.

But the scariest thing was the wasted ham. 😱

I watched one a while back about a 11 or 12 yo boy who unknowingly drank tea made from the aforementioned “hells bells” (I think his older brother made it or something), tripped balls, went out into the woods and wandered around in a stupor all night. Sometime the next day, he stumbles out of the woods, super confused. His parents were freaking out, of course. Kid was basically unknowingly dosed, which sucks!

 I will never understand why some people do it again and again. Like “that was horrible, gimme more of this shit” 😂

It’s funny how a person like myself, who has precisely ZERO interest in ever doing any of these drugs, loves so much to hear about other people doing those drugs. I used to read drug stories people submitted on a site called “userstories”. That site is long gone, probably for 15 or so years now. It was so entertaining, I really miss sites like that.

Dad did ALL the drugs back in the early 80’s while in the military and told me his stories about LSD and other crazy shit, maybe that’s why it interests me so much 🧐

Welp, gonna go watch the rest of the video. I rambled again haha


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