I’m apparently out to destroy my own finances again. I have a deep, burning desire to have something to look forward to. Things feel dire. I’m isolated again. And so, I spend money I don’t have. I don’t know why I react this way. But yeah, I don’t have anyone to have an actual conversation with. Even though I’m currently in a house with other people, I feel alone. I am going home tonight, not because of that but I need to take a shower…I don’t have the privacy here…and my shower has no shower head anymore 😅 I’ll probably come back and stay over New Years Eve. I do like it in this basement for some reason.
Anyhow, back to me doing dumb things with money. Again. Cut, because screenshots.
Once again, I’ve built up a bit of debt, but not like last time….yet. I’m really going to try not to do that, but I have a real problem that I’m not getting enough help for. Here is some of what I bought off eBay today. Mostly Barbie 😜
I also got a replacement for my original Ray Ban Wayfarers that broke. These look exactly like my old ones with the glossy frames, don’t give me that textured matte bullshit. 🤮 There were a couple “Around the World” Barbies. Germany and Scotland. Those are pretty cheap. I had both and several others when I was a kid.
Now I have to get some stands. I want to keep the pink ooak in a similar, if not the exact same position. I wonder if there’s some kind of stand to keep a sitting doll in position while its legs hang off the shelf so it won’t fall over or slide off. I really don’t want to change her.
I’m paying with Klarna and the monthly payments are a bit over $50 which was less than I expected. Manageable enough. I’m not to the awful amount of debt like before, but I need to stop my rampage like…yesterday. 😬 I know I’m nuts. I just like growing my collections of stuff. It’s a hard impulse to ignore, almost impossible for me. Hooboy.
Is there a way to end a cut on WordPress? There’s some things I don’t want to be under the cut, but afaik it covers everything written after creating said cut. When I think of a cut, I am thinking of Livejournal cuts and how they worked on that journaling site. It used codes to start and stop them, but there isn’t any equivalent here. I don’t even know if others call them “cuts” at all, that’s just what we called them back then. Maybe no one knows what I’m talking about. 🤷♀️
Dad news: he seems to be doing okay right now. Just coughing a lot (the kind cough syrup doesn’t help) and sleeping at weird times. He can walk without a walker but keeps it for peace of mind. He’s acting fairly normally and so am I. I do get a little tense when ads for cancer medication come on tv, but I can’t see any obvious reaction from dad.
I really want to get a nice Christmas tree for next year. Don’t know if I mentioned, but ours burnt out. I wanna find something fiber optic because me and him used to be a little fixated on fiber optic stuff. We had an awesome tree with that technology for years until it burnt out. That was the coolest tree ever! I want to find something similar, but it’s difficult to know if the ones on Amazon are really worth a crap. They’re way too cheap, and you usually get what you pay for. I’m praying he’ll be around next Christmas. He loved those two trees, and l’d like him to have a good one next Christmas. I don’t want to even think of dad not being here, but I know it’s going to happen. Later than sooner, I hope. Much later.
There’s a weight loss place in town. I never really paid attention to it, but I’ve started to wonder about what services they offer. If they do the anti fat absorption shots, I’d be very interested. I’ve had them two times before and they do work. I lost about 40lb the second time! It doesn’t come without some very inconvenient side effects, though 😭. But yeah, I’m gonna call them and then Spark tomorrow because Spark hasn’t called me yet. It’s giving me anxiety lol. I need peer & individual support people to cure the isolation I’ve been dealing with. I hope I get people I can have a conversation with. That is very important to my mental health!
Lastly…Oscar is getting way too comfortable here already 😆 He has begun his shit-demon behaviours in this house. Now mom and dad get to experience him at his worst 😅 He wasn’t like that when I lived there, he’s become batshit in the last year or so I guess. He knocked dad’s meds off the counter and stalked them while they ate dinner. Now you see the coocoo bonkers shit I deal with! 😺 He made some sort of “awful mess” this morning, according to mom. Considering how he treated that cheap topless litter box in the basement last time, I am not shocked.
Listening to: Cheap Trick – Surrender