First, I must gloat. My credit score went up to 770. š No one else cares, but I love that for me š¬
I had Christmas with mom and dad on Christmas Eve, as has been tradition since I was a kid, because dad always had to work Christmas Day. He obviously doesnāt work anymore, but it stuck lol. Mom loves her Hydroflask! This woman is so weird, sheāll leave bottled water in the car during summer. If sheās thirsty, she will drink the hot water. I told her āYou donāt have to live like this anymoreā š Dad loves his shirts as well, he was really surprised about the āfick dichā shirt which is āfuck youā in Deutsche, he says it all the time haha. He was really happy about the āI Have Rabiesā shirt because now we can be rabies together! I think mom needs one as well. Solidarity and all that.
I finally got a good look at my new boots from VampireFreaks and they are bad assss! If I ever need to kick someone in the crotchal region, itās gonna hurt! Those spikes are really sharp. Once again, I have gotten platforms because I canāt help myself. Iām scared of falling again, even though I simply need to avoid mulch and uneven ground. Both times Iāve busted my ass were because of mulch. It wasnāt even the size of the platforms because the second time I fell (into a prickle bush in a parking lot plant median thing) I was wearing boots with normal soles.
I also did a bad thing. I let myself ādepression shopā again. TWICE. I ordered another pair of fucking boots and something else I canāt freaking remember! Itās just a bandaidā¦I know. It gives me a crazy rush to get things I actually really want.Ā Itās not like Iām buying random crap just to buy something. I know thatās a poor excuse, but I always feel kind of hopeless and Iām just trying toā¦I donāt know. Iām between a rock and a hard place concerning medication and my failing memory, which Iāve said before is what I think is causing that. Boo. Iām just not gonna talk about that part anymore. But thatās just my personal experience. CONTEXT IS IMPORTANT.
Under a cut because of pictures and incoherent doll rambling!
The second time was this morning. I was in my newly set-up ābedroomā, if you could call it that, and started looking around on EBay. My near obsession with Barbies has come roaring back after some 25 years. I never stopped loving them, I just wasnāt buying. Since I bought that Barbie collectables book when I was eleven, I have dreamed of having the 1960s dolls with rooted eyelashes and cool Mod style clothes. I think I mentioned that I was never fond of the very first Barbie doll mold, even though I very quickly snatched up the really popular reproduction that Mattel issued in the 90s. You know, the original 1959 doll with the b&w striped bathing suit. The 60s Twist-n-Turns are my favourite. The faces are gorgeous in most of the characters, and I absolutely love those rooted eyelashes. I like Barbieās friends Francie and Casey best, and thatās what I bought today. I got three dolls which were affordable enough, certainly less than I expected. I had assumed that theyād be super expensive, and some are, but not all. That assumption is why I never got one. I donāt even know if eBay was around back then. My childhood flea market searches were also a big fail. Anyways, hereās some screenshots.
Francie
Casey #1
Casey #2
I love their faces sooo much ššš Arenāt they pretty! Iām so excited to finally have some of these. They all seem to be in good shape, which is optimal because I have zero experience restoring dolls.
I almost got the Twiggy doll but I wasnāt sure enough of what shape it was in. I love Twiggy, sheās a Mod icon. I did see a Tonner Twiggy doll I might want.
I would love to start a small collection of OOAK dolls but those are pretty expensive because of all the work someone put into them. I see lots of Barbie, Tonner, Bratz, Monster High, and others get totally redone, sometimes with amazing results. No clue what Iām jibbering on about? Watch Hextian on YouTube, his custom dolls always turn out great and you get to watch the process. Wish I could do things like that, it looks really difficult but also fun and creative. Iām terrible at painting eyes. Like, on anything,Ā much less the face of a doll. I admire anyone who can do faceups that look even okay-ish!
I wish I knew where my Barbies are. I remember exactly where they were in the old house. In a plastic bin in the attic. I also had other toys, mostly from the 80s, that could have been worth a little. After moving, they were just gone. I know my mom wouldnāt dare trash my old toys and stuff. I asked, and she said she has no idea where they are. Now that Iām thinking about it, that really bugs me! The house we had moved into had almost no storage space, unlike the previous which had a ginormous attic and was filled with every toy I ever had, my most favourite teddy bear, all my childhood drawings and school projects, a billion old issues of Shounen Jumpā¦etc. I want my shit back! š
Okay, moving onā¦
I finally got fed up with ACAās inaction and asked my caseworker at Partners what I could do. I mentioned Spark, because I already know a few people there and she gave me a referral for Peer and Individual supports. They havenāt called me yet. Wait, did I already write about that? š Gimme a break, my memory is crap.
Parents finally got their new car. Itās a 2025 white Nissan Ultima. Iāll never be able to find it in a crowded parking lot. It kind of looks like every other white car.
Alright, Iām going to lie down. I barely slept last night. I did get a super uncomfortable couch nap before going home, though. All three of us were asleep, guess it was all the food.
Night night, internet. Have a good one.