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May 28 2022 May 28, 2022 May 28, 2022 2Comments by Eden

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I have Covid. I went all this time without getting it. I’m fully vaccinated. THREE family members have died from it, which makes me more concerned about my parents and cat catching it from me. I took a home test last night which showed negative, however today I felt so bad I went to an urgent care clinic and they tested me there. I was about to crawl out of my freaking skin last night and this morning. I can’t stand being sick. It’s been literally years since I’ve been sick and I think I forgot how to tolerate it.

I read how common it is to pass it to a cat or dog, it’s some crazy percentage that I never expected. I thought it was very uncommon but it isn’t. Oscar had pneumonia a while back and I worry that makes him more susceptible to getting a serious case. Most animals seem to have mild symptoms. He already sneezes a lot and seems congested.

I’ve been in bed all day except when I went to the urgent care.


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Jan 31 2022 January 31, 2022 January 31, 2022 NoComment by Eden

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My cousin died yesterday afternoon. I don’t know all the details, but I’m very sad…it might not have been avoidable even if she was vaccinated. I think her raging diabetes was the biggest reason she died. 🙁 It really does fuck up the immune system…

I had my eyebrows tinted. Mom’s beautician was trying to talk me out of having her fix the stupid arch and tadpole tails (thats what I call those skinny ass ends, I like slightly thicker eyebrows) and I said no, I’m dead set on getting the shape I want. She said “what if I disagree with you?” and I just looked at her and smiled. You can’t disagree with me. Mom paid you to do this. So do it. 🙂

Went to B&N and got a figure drawing book. I’m trying really hard to get back into it. I just have no energy. 🙁


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Jan 26 2022 January 26, 2022 January 26, 2022 NoComment by Eden

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Well…things are not looking good for my cousin. Her blood sugar was 800 and her A1C was SIXTEEN when they tested her, and the doctor said that’s probably the biggest factor in how this turns out. I didn’t even know it could go that high. She wasn’t vaccinated, refused the antivirals, and I just don’t understand why. She wouldn’t take any meds for her diabetes either, except metformin. She never gets flu vaccines either. I just don’t get it. She is currently in an unresponsive state and one of her lungs collapsed today. I don’t even know what to think…I’m preparing for the worst, because that’s probably how it’s going to turn out. She is also mom’s other best friend…so she’s losing everybody.

I’m so scared mom will get it. I’m even worried about myself, because I’m diabetic and my A1C was 8 last time, I think. I’m not exactly the healthiest. Mom had raging legionnaires pneumonia a few years ago which did damage to her lungs, that’s why I’m so worried. I know I say this every post, but FUCK this fucking virus. In the ear. What else will it take from us??? I just want this to be over.


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Jan 08 2022 January 8, 2022 January 8, 2022 NoComment by Eden

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My cousin is in the hospital with Covid pneumonia and is on a ventilator since last night. Her doctors are saying she won’t “oxygenate”. Her oxygen was down to 70 and her blood sugar was over 800 when she went in. I’m afraid she isn’t going to make it. This comes very soon after my beloved aunt died from Covid double pneumonia… my mom was/is very very close with both of them, it seems like she’s going to lose all her friends, the people she can talk to when she’s stressed or going through something. I’m worried about her too.

It seems like everyone in my cousins immediate family got it bad.

Let’s hope she recovers even though it looks grim right now.

And no she wasn’t vaccinated. I don’t think she trusts vaccines in general because she won’t get flu vaccines either.

My mom is vaccinated and boosted. She also had raging legionnaires pneumonia several years ago which did damage to her lungs. That’s what worries me. People who have had pneumonia or chronic bronchitis (like my aunt) seem to do worse with Covid. I’m just really afraid she’ll get it and wind up in the hospital. That scares me more than anything. Even though she’s vaccinated, that absolutely does not stop you from contracting it or spreading it. The vaccine is supposed to prevent severe cases in which you wind up on a ventilator. I hope it does it’s job. I fucking hate this virus. So much.

Sigh. Anyhow.

I have made the decision to move to Charlotte in the next couple years. I found a place that takes section 8 and sits in the first ward historic district of the city 🏙 I have always dreamed of living in a big city, since I was a kid. I dreamed of looking out my window at night and seeing the city lights all around me. When I was a kid my biggest dream was to go to NYC. When I turned 16, I finally got to go as a birthday present. I was wide-eyed and amazed. The culture shock was very real though.

I asked my peer support lady Ginger if they would let her take me down to Charlotte and view the apartment complex and hopefully a unit when the time comes. She said she probably could, so yay!


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Dec 01 2021 December 1, 2021 December 19, 2024 NoComment by Eden

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So this is where we’re at as a society.


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Sep 18 2021 September 18, 2021 September 18, 2021 NoComment by Eden

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I just bought a pack of Niosh approved n95 masks for my mom. The situation with my godmother has made me so incredibly paranoid about her catching it and ending up like her best friend. I have just been lying here in bed all night, unable to sleep because I’m thinking about them both.

I have never been able to view my mom as an “old person”, even though she claims to be one. She’s 71 and looks to be in her 50s. I guess now I have to accept that she’s a (young) old person. 71 is still young to me honestly. When someone around that age passes away, I always say “but they’re too young to die”.

I’m so messed up in the head right now. It’s a nasty mixture of fear and trepidation. 😔


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Sep 17 2021 September 17, 2021 September 17, 2021 NoComment by Eden

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I have anger in me today. My godmother is quickly deteriorating and her relative called my mom today and said she has maybe a day or two to live. The hospital has thrown every medication on earth at her including ivermectin and hydroxychloroquin. None of it has helped and her x-rays show that it is only getting worse. She declined a ventilator and signed a DNR order. Not only am I very sad, but I’m angry.

Mom had a conversation with her neighbor today about this. The neighbor, Tina, asked if she (my godmother) was vaccinated and mom answered no. Tina then went on a rant about unvaccinated people and said she didn’t care if they died. Mom was taken aback and kind of told her off in her own nice way. What really gets under my skin is that Tina said that after she knew my godmother wasn’t vaccinated. I had no idea she was that kind of person. Bitch doesn’t deserve the two cats she has. They’re too good for her.

Some people on the left, much like Tina, tout their compassion and tolerance. It’s a flimsy mask (no pun intended) that tends to slip and reveal their true nature. Been seeing that a lot lately.

My godmother’s impending passing is just as important and tragic as any vaccinated persons. She is no less important or loved. She is no less of a great person because she wasn’t vaccinated. And no one will miss her any less!

I’m a libertarian. I strongly disagree with anti-vaxxers, conspiracists and people who spread lies about vaccines causing autism and “vaccine injuries”. I WISH more people were getting vaccinated. The county I live in is only 40% vaxxed and I wish they weren’t so scared or hesitant because it could save their lives. But I still believe in choice even though it often has consequences.

Still hoping for a miracle…whatever god(s) you pray to, please put in a good word for her.

Ahem. Anyways. Inspections start Monday 😑 Moms friend is coming tomorrow at 8am to deep-clean this bitch. She does an excellent job and doesn’t charge as much as you’d think she would. The property manager said he was doing at least 2 or 3 MORE fucking inspections this year. Really?! I like him a lot but he’s nuts!

Oscar gets his second allergy shot Monday. He only sneets every once in a while now. I hope this will knock it out completely.

Now I gotta clean up a bunch of stuff. I’m tired and just want to lie in bed but I have to get everything put up and out of her way so she can clean tomorrow.


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Sep 13 2021 September 13, 2021 September 13, 2021 NoComment by Eden

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My godmother is very, very sick. She’s got COVID pneumonia in not one, but BOTH lungs. It’s not known whether or not she will pull through. She’s a vibrant, colorful 71 year old woman, and my moms best friend. I’m very worried and wish she had gotten vaccinated. I don’t know why she didn’t. Mom was so upset when she got a text saying it was in both lungs.

Fuck this virus.

On a slightly lighter note, I found a beautiful framed photo of the NYC skyline at night. The WTC is in the photo and I was so happy to see that. It must be over 20 years old then. It’s actually pretty big. Got it for $5.


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Apr 26 2020 April 26, 2020 April 26, 2020 NoComment by Eden

RIP.

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My Grandma died today. She was in a nursing home where something like 30+ residents and 20+ staff had Covid-19. We don’t know exactly why she passed away. It could have been the virus, it could have been old age, or something else. Dad thinks she will be posthumously tested for covid. I don’t know. Stupid fucking virus…

Anyhow, I’m just very sad and attempting to comfort my mom, which I am not very good at.


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