Good lord.
Ughhhhh
I just wrote a long email to mom about how I made a mistake canceling my surgery, and I know she’s going to think I’m a crazy flip flopping idiot but yeah. I want to reschedule it. I apologized like 50 times. I know I put stress on her because she’s naturally high strung and I don’t want to do that. She’s 74 and I do not want to give her a heart attack or something. I do depend on her for a lot of things though. I feel bad because she should be enjoying her golden years but instead she has money problems and…me that she often has to care for.
Anyhow I’m gonna try to make the second time around less stressful for her.
I hope they’ll let me reschedule it. I think they will because plenty of people on the weight loss surgery subreddit have done the same thing and chickened out last minute.
I still feel like a dumb fuck though. =_=