Omfg mom got me a region free blu ray player!! She’s paying for it with Affirm at $14 a month. I’m fucking excited! I have wanted one of these for so long. I hate region restrictions and I no longer have to bother with them 😀 I always get so annoyed when I find something I’d been looking for on Amazon, only to see that damn yellow region warning sign.

WOO!

I thanked her profusely and she said she got it because she sees how down I’ve been and wanted to see me happy about something. *gets teary eyed*

Oscar is driving me batshit crazy. He’s jumping up on tables and counters for the sole reason of bulldozing through whatever’s sitting there and knocking it off. I actually got so aggravated that I yelled at him really loud. I feel bad about it now 😅 He’s just so damn rowdy lately. I had to shut him in another room while I showered because he’d piss in the laundry basket if I didn’t! He’s also become super intrusive into my space, he will LIE ON MY FACE if I let him. He tries. He also gets right in my face when I’m eating and I have to push him away many times, which I also feel bad about. This is one reason I’m getting a dog. He deserves a friend that could help him expend all that pent up energy he apparently has. He adored dad’s dog. I think he really likes dogs once he meets them and is around them for about a week. I doubt it would be like that with another cat, because he’s spoiled rotten and would perceive it as a threat. I think a dog will be great for the both of our mental health. I feel kind of bad for being out of the apartment for a few hours every day, and also that I keep the curtains closed because I can’t stand natural daylight in my apartment until dusk. Especially when I’m trying to sleep. Everything is pretty dark until I get up, which is usually around 2pm. Please note that I start trying to sleep at 6am and it takes a couple of hours to get to sleep, even with melatonin. It’s not because I’m lazy that I sleep until then. I always feel like I have to defend myself about my sleep schedule because people have been assholes about it before. I feel judged. Rant over! 😅 After getting up, I open the curtains and door to the chill room just for him to get some sunlight. I might start leaving the chill room door cracked while I sleep so he can get in before I awake, even though I don’t want the daylight creeping in and screwing up my nice, dark sleep environment. The only light is the living room TV, which never gets turned off.

I’m still very concerned about the change in behaviour. I don’t know what could have triggered that. I’ll always have unconditional love for him, even when he’s acting coocoo bonkers. 😆

I had McDonalds again just now. I feel ashamed lol. I have to stop doing this. It’s so unhealthy. Way more unhealthy than the stuff I usually eat. I don’t get enough calories per day to really gain weight anymore but if I eat that all the time, I’m gonna gain it all back. A quarter pounder with cheese, medium fries and a strawberries and crème pie is above the daily weight loss calorie limit. Why does it have to be so tasty? Why is everything that’s unhealthy delicious?? Why does processed food taste so good? I would love an answer to that question as I’ve been asking it my whole freaking life 😭

I’ve been listening to narrators read creepypastas for the past few weeks. I like the cosmic horror and space stories a lot, as well as religion based ones. They scare me the most. As for the space horror stories, they REALLY scare me, because humans have been putting signals and beacons out into the universe for a long time. I have always been terrified of aliens and the prospect of an invasion scares me shitless because they would be a lot higher on the Kardashev scale than we are. We aren’t even a type one civilisation yet! We’d be absolutely hosed if a hostile alien race decided they want our natural resources or something even worse. Or maybe they’d want to eradicate us for reasons unknown. I always pray nothing notices these beacons we’ve put out, and if they do, that they’re uninterested in our relatively primitive world. I like watching alien horror movies because they actually scare me. Same with clowns and creepy kids. I wish scientists would stop putting us out there, because something might answer, and it could be something terrible. That’s been on my mind a little bit because of the pastas I’ve been listening to. Maybe I should lay off them for a while lol