Got Etsy plus, gonna see if it’s worth it. http://horrorofbelladonna.com
Everything is still kinda ugly, I wish I could put it on dark mode or something, because that bright white page just ain’t doing it for me. It’s black on the app, but not on the PC. I hate white pages >_> Not only do they hurt my eyes, but it doesn’t fit the theme of my shop.
I’m feeling better than I was last night. I had a feeling of trepidation and depression. Probably the worst I’ve felt in a while. I have an appointment with my psychiatrist Monday I think, and I’m going to ask her to revert everything back to what it was before. I’m going to keep taking provigil and ask her to up my Ativan or some other anxiety medication. Because I need it.
Mom spent some extra time with me today and we went and ate. I finally saw her upper chest and neck, that was something I did NOT want to see, and it was even worse than what my imagination conjured up. It was pure body horror. The chemotherapy cream she had to put on her chest for two weeks REALLY did a number on her skin. It was some Freddy Krueger shit. It basically killed all the pre-cancerous spots that she gets on her chest a lot and brought them to the surface. Our dermatologist said it should heal back to normal. She has to do this same thing every January from now on. My mom was a sun worshipper in her younger days. No one talked about sunscreen, it wasn’t really a thing back then. The big thing was tanning oil. People just laid there and baked in the sun, doing horrible damage to their skin and it’s no surprise that a lot of older people get more skin cancers and pre-cancerous spots. I’m really glad I never did that, mom always made me use sunscreen even though I fought it haha.
Sunshine is for plants anyways 😊