Month: March 2024

Mar 30 2024 March 30, 2024 March 30, 2024 NoComment by Eden

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The most awkward conversation I’ve ever had. This happened years ago but popped up in my head today.

I was going to visit my psychiatrist and I always see the nurse so she can take my vitals. She had weight loss surgery, which I also was trying to get at the time, so of course I asked how it felt.

 

Me: How does it feel to have lost so much weight? Do you feel better?

Her: I have cancer.

Me: umm uhhh… s-sorry.

 

Happy to report she survived and was the nurse there for a long time until she got another job.

But goddam. Awkward!!

Also very happy to report that my own quest for weight loss surgery is going great and I only have two doctors appointments left, and I should be done by May. If all goes well, I’ll be scheduled for surgery soon after. I unfortunately have to have ANOTHER psych eval refresher because Medicaid is being an ass. But it’s okay. I like the people there. They’re always good to me.

 

Listening to: Sister Sledge – We Are Family


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Mar 29 2024 March 29, 2024 March 29, 2024 1Comment by Eden

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My credit score fell 42 points the other day. It was downgraded from “good” to “fair”. I cannot fathom why it fell, I have been paying off things on time or early! Someone explain this to me. Make it make sense.


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Mar 25 2024 March 25, 2024 March 25, 2024 NoComment by Eden

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So the other night I watched The Sand and now I’m watching Lavalantula, which is about lava-breathing giant spiders. I love this shit 😅

I make the last payment on my expensive shoes next month, thank god. They’re beautiful but costly! I’m also getting a gaming pc which I’m paying only $25 a month for through Affirm. It is of course refurbished, which makes it affordable for me. I’m excited.

So far I’ve gotten 16 likes on Plenty of Fish but have no way to make contact with them unless I pay. I’m starting to wonder what’s the point of having the free version of the app if I can’t really do anything!


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Mar 23 2024 March 23, 2024 March 23, 2024 NoComment by Eden

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I’m watching a B Horror movie called “The Sand”, which I already saw a looong time ago. It’s about a beach that EATS PEOPLE (and whatever happens to touch it) and there are no real special effects, the acting is a bit hammy, but it’s FUN. And that’s all that really matters to me 😋

I love B Horror movies.

I have nothing much to eat at my house but I’m not eating much, so… but still, it’s kind of annoying.

I’ve had 7 or 8 people give me a like on Plenty of Fish, but I’m not sure how to interact with them since I’m not paying for the service. I guess they have to initiate? Idk, it’s a bit confusing to me. Also I can’t see who they are or what they look like. They’re all blurred out. It’s expensive too, I ain’t paying that much for anything lol


Mar 22 2024 March 22, 2024 May 1, 2024 1Comment by Eden

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I joined a dating site. Plenty of Fish. I have it set that I’m looking for women only. I am bisexual and sometimes think guys look good, but I’m just not interested in them, so I consider myself a lesbian by choice. If that makes sense.

As for the trans thing, I’m not fucking trans, I’m a masculine woman. I’ve come to the realization that not every masculine woman is trans. Masculine women exist and we are fine just the way we are. Mind blown lol


Mar 17 2024 March 17, 2024 March 17, 2024 1Comment by Eden

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It’s March, but I’m already in a Halloween mood. O_o


Mar 16 2024 March 16, 2024 March 16, 2024 NoComment by Eden

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I feel bad for writing about my mom the way I did a couple of posts down. We got along really well today.

I just realized I have an eye appointment coming up sometime this year and he’ll probably recommend me for cataract surgery in my right eye since I can’t see out of it anymore. It’s like there’s a blob of petroleum jelly over my eye and I’m trying to see through it. My problem is that all my glasses will become obsolete because in that surgery, they put a new lense on the eye which corrects the vision. That’s great, but I’ll have to get new glasses and my favorite glasses, my $300 Silhouettes, will be useless and the price of Silhouettes like the ones I’ve had for over a decade have gone up to $500+. What good is it to be able to see out of one eye and not the other? That’s where I’m at now! I stilll have to have glasses after that. Having one good eye is pointless. I know that sounds whiny but that’s how I see it. No pun intended.

I had a nap in my chair and woke up feeling weird again. I took my medication earlier, I did not forget. Anyhoo it didn’t last very long but gave me a scare.

Oscar had his rabies shot. I always wondered how those vaccines work. Isn’t rabies a prion disease? Or am I totally off mark. O_o I don’t understand how a vaccine works against prions. Have patience with me, I’m not that bright haha.…. Okay Looked it up, it’s not a prion disease, but an RNA virus. I thought since rabies is similar to mad cow disease that it was also prion based. I learned a thing today! I also learned just now that CWS (chronic wasting disease aka zombie deer disease) is a prion disease and that is fucking horrifying. Currently it’s seen here in the US (and Canada I assume) mostly in deer and moose I think, but it’s feared it could make a jump to humans, mainly because people eat a lot of deer meat. Especially in places, like here, where there’s tons of people who hunt for their food. That REALLY freaks me out. There’s no cure or vaccine. I don’t think there’s even a lot known about it, other than it being terrifying. Prions are one of the scariest things ever. Try not to read too much about them. It’ll scare the hell out of anyone.

Don’t ask why I’m babbling on about horrible diseases. I just write about whatever pops in my head.

Listening to: The Ramones – Pet Sematary


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Mar 14 2024 March 14, 2024 March 14, 2024 NoComment by Eden

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Oooo my sunglasses got here today, I see better in them than my regular glasses XD


Mar 13 2024 March 13, 2024 March 13, 2024 1Comment by Eden

Ffs!!

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My mother is a rude and often ignorant person. If she gets angry and we’re in the car, she absolutely guns it and goes well over the speed limit, putting the two of us as well as others in danger. I tell her to stop, and she will say something like “I will speed if I wish”. All because I called her while she was in the store and she picks up and says “WHAT.” In the rudest way possible. I ask her why she spoke to me that way because it really bothers me, and she actually had the balls to deny it O_o like…you literally just…never mind. /sigh

I do not know how to interact with this stranger anymore. We were having a relatively nice day until that happened. We went and got my bloodwork done (8 vials ugh) and then to a thrift store where I got three shirts. Then to McDonalds because I was absolutely starving. I had emailed her last night because I wanted to make sure we could pick up some nails because I was motivated to hang some pictures and this just made her mad or whatever. She apparently did not want to go get nails, so she starts acting like that.

Being around her is about as fun as explosive diarrhea these days. I mean, sometimes we do get along fine, but other times…

I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m terrified Medicare will suddenly stop paying for my peer support services at A Caring Alternative and I won’t have my peer and individual support people anymore to take me out to do stuff and also help me with other things mom can’t or won’t do. I’ll be stuck with JUST HER again. Which was one reason I wound up in the hospital….total isolation. That was my life. No one but my parents. They were the only people I was really around and I was so closed off from the rest of the world….if that happens again…I don’t know what I’ll do. I don’t think ACA knows just how much I need them and what’s at stake.


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Mar 07 2024 March 7, 2024 March 7, 2024 NoComment by Eden

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Wanna know what really ticks me off? When someone is CONSISTENTLY LATE and they NEVER bother calling or texting to let me know. Lady, I know you run into “crises” sometimes but it’s never too much trouble to drop a quick text. Rude rude rude. Fuck, I’m so pissed off. Ruins my day. I canceled our meeting. My time is actually worth something 🤬