I honestly think that the friends I have had for 20+ years don’t give a shit about me anymore. I’m thinking of just deleting myself out of their lives. I don’t think they’ll care or miss me very much.
I am aware that I’m whining. This is my blog. That’s what it’s for. I just feel crappy about my friendships and have for a pretty long time. I’ve built up resentment towards some people and it doesn’t feel so good.
I want to forget about it. I want to make new friends and get on with my life. There are a couple of friendships I still value a lot though. I don’t know what to do about it because I don’t know how to talk to people anymore. /sigh
okay, bed time 🥱 g’night, internet.
You’re lucky you had friends growing up. I never had any cause they would always bully me in school. It would be nice if I had friends outside of the Internet.
Yeah I only had a couple when I changed schools. No one liked me cuz of the texture of my hair and because I was a nerd. I wish I had irl friends too 😅
I feel you. I only really have one good friend in adulthood and I only get to see her a couple of times a year because long distance.
Have you tried hobby gatherings? I go to women’s fitness classes and it has helped me gradually get better at talking to people.
Take care!
I have thought about attending meetups before, I just wish I wasn’t so shy. Maybe I’ll try it 😊
I hope you get to see your friend more! All my high school friends moved to the far corners of the earth and I haven’t seen them since.