Feeling a bit better since I last posted. Me and mom are back on good terms.

I have an appointment with a dietitian and surgeon next month. I’m pretty excited! I don’t know if that’s when they’d schedule the actual surgery or what.

I also have an MRI, which I unfortunately have to be fully anesthetized for, because I am really, really claustrophobic. Even if I was to do an open MRI, I wouldn’t be able to control my breathing. Also Anesthesia gives me hyperthermia which means I sweat buckets the rest of the day. It’s actually the contrast dye that does that, but I digress. The whole reason I am having one is because social security is trying to knock as many people off payments as they can, even truly disabled people. Fucked up. Well, my back sure as shit hasn’t improved. They came back with a decision on my mental health, which says no improvement. So I’m pretty sure I’m going to continue having SSI, thank the gods. The whole thing has been really stressful.

I think a new disc is bulging in my neck. I was just sitting in the car a couple weeks ago and a sharp pain shot through the right side of my neck. It’s been messed up and even more painful than normal since. In my opinion neck pain is the worst pain. :/ because there’s no comfort from it.