What is there when you can’t trust your own parents? Your own MOTHER? I have no other support. There’s no one else to call. I am completely alone. Feeling like harming myself. She doesn’t care, she actually sounded annoyed when I called her. She says it stresses her out, well how do you think I feel?! She won’t even text me back anymore.
Im depressed about my life about being ill and in pain and not being able to do the things I love. I also got into thinking how I never got to live my dream of going to school for animation and it fucking kills me inside. I know the car accident that started this physical sickness wasn’t my fault (I wasn’t driving) but I still feel like a huge failure. My body and soul are crying out in pain. For help. It’s really getting to me today for whatever reason. I also forgot to take my medicine when I woke up and that usually means I will feel bad until I do. Today is not a good day. 😔
I had my first appointment for physical therapy the other day. Who knows if it will help. I don’t have much hope.