Rabbit in the Moon

It’s happened. I’ve finally met someone who’s more sensitive than me, and it is annoying. I sure hope I don’t come off like that.

Basically she’s my “peer support” from the place I get therapy at, and she had taken me to the library to rent some books. I have a hard time motivating myself to do stuff, especially reading. She asks, over and over again, “Have you read them”, “when do you think you might read them” and I got irritated, because I hate when people ask me the same questions over and over, and also I DON’T KNOW WHEN I MIGHT READ THEM. I said “When I feel like it.” and she got all weepy and told me to “be mindful of my tone”. I kind of wanted to smack her. I hate the word “mindful” too. It just fucking annoys me. Like…this girl is way younger than me and I hate having someone eight years younger than me treating me like a child. =_= When she first became my peer support, they had switched me from the previous girl to her because she was new and needed a caseload of clients. I had a really good relationship with the girl before her. I was so pissed when they switched me. Our personalities just do not match. She keeps trying to get me to volunteer at places, without taking my problems into consideration. I flat out told her I wasn’t going to volunteer any time soon. She ignored me and kept asking about “volunteering opportunities”. Also I had gone to the health food place to get Jojoba oil and saw a chapstick I might like, so I picked it up and she said “Not today”. What the fuck? I ignored her. Another time she took me to a gas station to grab a drink and I decided to quickly look at the sunglasses rack and she again said “Not today”. I’m sorry, I wasn’t under the impression I had to fcking ask your permission to look at something. I hATE when people in the mental health business treat me like I’m mentally diminished. It’s happened more times than I can count.

I miss the previous girl so much! 🙁