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Jan 28 2020 January 28, 2020 January 28, 2020 NoComment by Eden

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Uggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I have to do a lot of cleaning today, the stupid inspection is Thursday. I’m nauseated and my back is messed up. I don’t know how to deal.

Kill me now


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Jan 22 2020 January 22, 2020 January 22, 2020 NoComment by Eden

Hey!

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Went a while without posting. Guess I had nothing to say O_o

Today I had the worst headache and nerve pain. I think it made me hallucinate D: Like….Mom draped her jacket on my vacuum cleaner and I swear I saw the arm lift up and throw something red across the room. Yikes. It very obviously scared my cat, though. I dunno. D: Anyhoo, I feel somewhat better now.

I’ve been super nervous because they’re doing apartment inspections on the 30th. I don’t know how picky they are. I’m a stuff person. I like my stuff. I have tons of books and and figures and little doodads and whatnot. The landlord said not to look like a hoarder. I’m not a fucking hoarder though, I just like the things I have and want to display them. *rolls eyes* I mean this place is like 650 square feet. They didn’t exactly give us a lot of space to put shit. =_=;

Boo.


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Jan 06 2020 January 6, 2020 January 6, 2020 NoComment by Eden

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I can’t believe how many cookbooks I’ve acquired over this short period of time. Yay for thrift stores! I swear I found like 3 for Chinese food alone. Even found a Cajun one. And one for nothing but CHEEEESE. *fatassthumbsup*

Ahem.

Last night I was in my bathroom and happened to look in the mirror. I thought “How grotesque you look.” and it made me really depressed. Everyone denies that I’m ugly, they say I’m “cute”, but that doesn’t convince me. I gained so much weight from depression eating….I can’t seem to stop. I can’t get it off. I can’t stick to a diet. Ugh. Why am I talking about this. I’ll stop.

I’m also regretting this permanent makeup. It makes me look more mature and I don’t like that. It doesn’t fit my personality. I just wanted it to open up my eyes and make them look bigger because I think they’re too small. I want to get it taken off somehow. What is wrong with me today =_=’ Complaining…I guess I’m just being extra critical of myself.

I’ll stop rambling now.


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Sep 20 2019 September 20, 2019 September 20, 2019 2Comments by Eden

And again

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I thought I had the Targeted Key application thing straightened out, but I had given the TK lady a call and she said they had filled it out on the wrong paperwork!! Another month lost. Apparently they messed up everyone elses too. If I hadn’t said something I don’t think they would have found out or realized that they fucked it up and we’d all just be wondering why our applications weren’t being processed. O_o Well I finally got it all totally straightened out yesterday. I’m calling TK lady again today to confirm it’s right this time. Housing lady faxed it to them yesterday but I’m still paranoid.

OOOOOH TODAY’S AREA 51 RAID DAY. I forgot! I am so curious to see what will happen. If you don’t know what I’m talking about, here: https://time.com/5681348/area-51-naruto-run/

Dammit, I love America. We are a special kind of crazy.


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Sep 16 2019 September 16, 2019 September 16, 2019 3Comments by Eden

I hate titles.

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My housing people are ghosting me. It’s getting annoying. I’m still getting offers for apartments but of course, housing lady turned my TK application in A MONTH LATE so I’m behind and can’t accept anything =_=

There’s some really strange stuff going on with my body too. I am starting to suspect I’m…going through menopause. Or starting to anyways. I’m 34, it’s too early in my life for this shit. Just another thing on my plate that I don’t need…


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Aug 23 2019 August 23, 2019 August 23, 2019 2Comments by Eden

The Housing Nightmare

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So, I am trying to get housing. I’m finally striking out on my own, scared shitless because I have never been alone, but I have to try! I can’t live with my parents forever, nor do I -want- to. I had thought at first about an assisted living facility, but finally decided on living on my own. That is my situation right now.

The housing lady at the mental health place I’m at refuses to turn in my targeted key application until she’s sure I can take care of myself, doing things like housekeeping etc. I showed I could do it yesterday, but that wasn’t enough. O_O I’m not sure what she wants from me!

Targeted Key is a rental assistance program. I live on a fixed income of $771 a month. I’m grateful for it, but it’s not a lot. Rent, even for low income equal opportunity housing is often upwards of $400 or $500 dollars. That is not including utilities! Targeted Key would pay a big chunk of my rent, leaving me more to live on.

The nightmare is that I’m getting calls from housing complexes (ones that I really liked, that are clean and well kept) asking about if I want an apartment! Only thing is, I need the Targeted Key to get in, otherwise I can’t pay the rent. Housing Lady hasn’t even turned the application in to be processed yet. I got the call yesterday and am DESPERATE to get this apartment. It’s convenient in location (close to parents) and very clean and nice. She needed an answer YESTERDAY. I called her back saying I couldn’t get in touch with my housing person but got an answering machine. *sigh* I don’t know if I’ve already lost my chance to get this one. I am so disappointed and disillusioned in this process. I don’t even know if I’ll get any more offers any time soon. This shit about where I live now put me in the hospital earlier this year. I don’t want to go back.


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