I went out with peer support girl today, she was made aware of my request for a switch, and apologized for the things she did and said, and told me to tell her if she fucks up in the future. I said okay, and asked my therapist to hold off on switching her. I actually had a good time. We’ll see how things go from here on…

I haven’t worked on my godforsaken donut for three nights. I’m afraid to open Blender >.>; My donut is a nonut. I guess I’ll try to pick up on it again tomorrow night, since it’s almost 5 AM here now.

I don’t know if I’ll ever figure Blender out, I keep forgetting the hotkeys and still don’t understand what a subsurface modifier is! ;_;

Otherwise…I’ve spent my night looking for advice for people with autism and severe sensory problems and dating. I signed up for the forums at Wrongplanet and went over the love and relationships forum but didn’t find anything relevant to my problem. I don’t think there’s any forums about sensory problems and dating. I don’t know why I’m bothering to try and figure my problem out, no one’s ever gonna want me or put up with my issues. Especially the person I like. He likes thin, pretty girls, both of which I’m not. I can fix the thin part, but I don’t know if I’ll be as cute as I used to be when I was thin. >_> I don’t know how OLD I’ll look. That’s something that makes me very paranoid. Everyone tells me how young I look but will it be the same if I lost all the weight in my face? Will I look….droopy? Ugghhhh. I guess it’s better than being fat, though.

Ah well….until next time.