Happy Independence Day to my fellow Americans! 🎆

I thought whatever this illness is was mostly over, but I started feeling awful again earlier. ☹️ I feel like I’m never gonna be rid of it. I also scratched myself so bad that I have busted blood vessels in my leg and probably other places and they are so sore! I hope I feel better when I wake up. Maybe I can sleep it off…

I had to take my artificial tree and little palm back to Lowes because I cannot pay for something that has 50% interest. I would have understood 25% maybe, but 50%? Nooooo. I’d be better off just buying them full price over two months. They were $100 and $50 respectively. I’m really glad the lady that processed the return and cancellation of the lease to own thing Lowes does actually knew what she was doing, because the lady that was there when I bought it didn’t know anything, and the customer service woman I called today to ask about returning them said “we don’t do rent to own here.” And I said something like “yes, you do. I have the receipt.” How would she not know that? 😅 seriously, educate your employees on what your store does. I thanked the customer service lady profusely today for not giving me the runaround and taking 30 minutes to return.

I got some Liquid IV drink mix which electrolytes the shit out of ya. I need it. As much as my body has mutinied on me the past few days, I desperately need to hydrate times two. I hear it’s good. It had better be…one little box was $10. I’d better be sweating drops of strawberry lemonade for that price. I tried a can of “probiotic soda”. It was strawberry lemon and was pretty tasty. I don’t know anything about what’s in it because I didn’t want to dig around for my glasses to read the can. Then, I threw the can away because I forgot. I don’t even remember what it was called, but it’s at Food Lion so I can probably find it again. Mom was suggesting Kefir as well. My guts are really fucked up and have been for years. I finally need to really address it.

I thought I might need to go to the hospital, but decided on Urgent Care as it was still open, to see if I actually had a need for a hospital visit. The abdominal pain is awful today. This has been the worst day so far (well technically yesterday) since it started last Friday. Doc gave me some medicine and I finally got home at 10pm. It’s helped the stomach pain a bit, but the intestinal….😭 I was actually scared because of how horrible I felt when I got home, I have not felt that bad in a long time. I’m not sure if I’ve ever felt that bad in this specific way. I was borderline passing out. I ate a whole HALF BOWL OF GRAPES. That was my food for the day. I did not take my insulin because I just knew somehow I wasn’t gonna eat.

I felt horrible, dad felt crappy himself, so we didn’t go out for his birthday. We moved it to Sunday night, but who knows if I’ll be any better. If shit hasn’t gotten any better by this afternoon, I was told to come back to urgent care. I have an appointment with my doctor Monday and I am NOT going to cancel, don’t care if it’s totally better. I have waaay too many problems with my stomach and intestines and need to get a handle on it, finally. Last time I had a camera shoved down my throat, there was a polyp in my stomach that they cut out. Maybe I grew another one and it’s giving me issues. Still waiting on a better appointment time with them. The first opening they had was in fucking September!

I am a miserable, grouchy sod. Please send help. Maybe some kittens. 😣

If I’m getting sick, it’s taking its sweet time to get going. I’ve had the same symptoms for two days and it has gone no further than drainage and a weird feeling in my throat. Also the nausea I’ve been feeling since last Friday. Normally, I’d have a sore throat and stuffy nose by now, and would be able to feel it in my bones. I’m going to try and see my doctor today, finally. I’ve been putting it off because I feel like I’ve been there too much lately and she’s going to think I’m a hypochondriac or malingerer. 😅

Whatever’s going on with me has only gotten worse over the past few days. I’ll spare anyone reading the TMI details, but otherwise I’ve been feeling very weak and thought I was going to pass out more than a few times. It actually feels like one of those “low sugar” episodes (I call it that because I’m not sure what it really is) that I usually get rid of by drinking a glass of milk. Milk does nothing for this. I have no idea what to do, go tell my doctor for the fifth time that I have ANOTHER friggin issue?? 😐

Starting about an hour ago, I feel like I might also be germ sick. Throat feels funny, lots of drainage. Mom said I should get tested for H Pilori or however it’s spelled. I hope it isn’t that. Doesn’t it take three weeks of antibiotics to get rid of? Maybe it’s a weird feeling that will go away, or I’m only imagining it because I’m afraid of being sick.

I really hope I’m not germ sick with whatever’s making the rounds at the moment. I’m so pitiful when sick or generally unwell, it’s embarrassing. Doesn’t matter what it is. Could be a sprained ankle or some other lame thing. I’d still be absolutely pathetic 😅

ah well…6am. Bedtime. Good night/morning. 💕