I just bought a pack of Niosh approved n95 masks for my mom. The situation with my godmother has made me so incredibly paranoid about her catching it and ending up like her best friend. I have just been lying here in bed all night, unable to sleep because I’m thinking about them both.

I have never been able to view my mom as an “old person”, even though she claims to be one. She’s 71 and looks to be in her 50s. I guess now I have to accept that she’s a (young) old person. 71 is still young to me honestly. When someone around that age passes away, I always say “but they’re too young to die”.

I’m so messed up in the head right now. It’s a nasty mixture of fear and trepidation. 😔