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Oct 10 2025 October 10, 2025 October 10, 2025 NoComment by Eden

Rough day

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I’ve definitely had a rough day. I’ve been in crazy pain for three days now. It’s not an intense stabbing pain, but it’s pervasive all over my body. Literally everywhere. It feels like nerve pain with a side of chronic neck pain, something which has also been worse lately. I have been doing really intense stretches and crunching and while it does help for a while, the pain comes back after a few hours. I have taken four Aleve today, 12 hours apart. The “exercises” I’ve been doing are so harsh I wouldn’t be terribly surprised if I broke or tore something. I do think I’ve broken a toe, but that was quite a while back. I’m miserable 😞 It’s affecting my insides as well.

Oscar had a 2.5 hour vet appointment today. I got him an exam, urine thingy and a senior cat blood panel which is really extensive, which is the reason I was there in the first place. I found out from the pee test that he has diabetes, which didn’t surprise me, I fully expected it. His blood sugar was over 400 which scared me. Sometime in 2008, I told dad I felt awful and he suggested checking my sugar. He used his kit and my sugar was well over 300. That’s how I found out. Knowing he was most likely feeling really bad for months made me so sad. I’m feeling guilty for not taking him way earlier, but I didn’t have the money for everything he needed, and that’s one big reason I got him insurance. I knew whatever was wrong was going to be chronic and require lots of vet visits, and I wanted to be certain I could cover the costs of whatever he needed. I reached my $250 deductible today by a LOT (there was a major snafu with the payment….ugh.) so I’ll be filing a claim to get  $150 back.

As for the payment snafu, I think it’s time to close my Capital One card. The interest is so freaking high and with my credit, I can definitely get a much better one. I am afraid the hit my credit would take from closing a card. I don’t know why that happens, but it’s fucking idiotic. I hope it doesn’t hurt too much. I might take out a small loan from my bank to pay mom back because she wound up taking most of the hit because of an honest but really dumb mistake I made. She now doesn’t have enough money to make it through the month and I feel terrible. That was my first credit card and there were things I still didn’t understand about them. Turns out all the money I paid into it every month was eaten up by interest. I was looking at the wrong fuckin number, basically. It’s labelled “balance” which I did not really understand. I thought I had roughly $150 on it when I actually had $54! My flabbers were gasted. I am going to be so paranoid about cc’s now…

And lastly, I do feel a lot better about Oscar’s health. I was so afraid they’d tell me I should have him put to sleep. I’m still afraid because I don’t know the results of his blood tests. I was extremely concerned about his weight loss, because it could have been related to cancer, but it was actually diabetes. He weighs 11lb now. Vet wants him at 9lb. I will be giving him his own Lantus pen and giving him one unit in the morning and one unit at night. That’s great because one vial of insulin costs a little over $100. I always have excess Lantus anyways.

That last bit was supposed to be short but whatever lol. Now I gotta take a nap. I’m old and busted.

Wait, I forgot to say I bought Silent Hill f on steam even though I didn’t really have the money 😬 Reading some comments on the tfl.org forums, it looks like I’m in for some shit. I am not good at puzzles. I ALWAYS cheat lol. Someone said you can’t really find anything to help with what sounds like a monster of a puzzle. The puzzles in other SH games were hard as hell, but this sounds like it’s worse. Oh lawd. I’m afraid to start it haha


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Feb 02 2025 February 2, 2025 February 3, 2025 NoComment by Eden

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The person I bought my pop socket from told me what I’d have to do to switch the resin bat to the pop socket brand back and I can’t do that, so she said she’d make a new one for me with a 50% discount. I ordered it. I just want my cute little bat to stay on my phone! A real pop has never let me down. They adhere really well. Never get a generic substitute for something like that. You could end up with a broken phone. I’m going to keep the old one because I can’t just throw it in the trash. Maybe I could use the resin bat for something else…like a brooch or something.

Today is Sunday, so I go to the parents to eat. We’re having subs from my favourite place, yay! I asked mom to come get me earlier than usual because I want to spend more time at their house. I hate coming home though, because I start getting anxiety and feeling lonely. Oscar’s been ignoring me lately and that doesn’t help.

On a side note, I fucking HATE iPhone keyboards. I hate them so much. They make me so ragey. It comes up with the weirdest autocorrects ever and just inserts them. It gives me a really hard time if I want to go back and rewrite something. *punts phone across the room*

Oh, and since the socket fell off, here’s a pic of it:

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Edit: I got Alice: Madness Returns for 99 cents on Steam. That game has such a cool style. Great deal, even for an older game!


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Nov 27 2024 November 27, 2024 December 11, 2024 NoComment by Eden

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I had a doctors appointment today. Somehow, I lost 6 pounds. I wasn’t trying so it was a welcome shock! Maybe it’s the Ozempic. I’m at 215 right now, and if I can just get below 200 I feel like things will be a lot easier.

My Self Credit Loan ends on the first of March, meaning I’ll get my savings payout! It’s something over $500, don’t know exactly. It’s done wonders for my credit over the last 15 months or thereabouts. When I get that money, first thing I’m doing is getting these abominations lasered off my face. The permanent makeup, I mean. I want the eyebrows and under eye liner gone. The top liner can stay. I want thinner eyebrows. Real ones. I just have to keep them up with waxing and dyeing and whatnot. I should send the person that tattooed them a bill…lol

I’m looking forward to thanksgiving Thursday. Mom couldn’t figure out what meat aside from turkey to buy (I don’t like turkey much) and wound up deciding on livermush of all things. I know it’s completely regional to this area and the name alone probably sounds disgusting to the uninitiated (wait til you find out what’s in it 😉), but it’s really, really good fried up in a sandwich. My aunt who lived in Tennessee (RIP) would drive all the way over here from Chattanooga to buy Hunter’s brand livermush. Hillbilly cuisine at its finest, truly. Well, that turned into a pro-livermush tangent…but I am a very pro-livermush individual.

I learned from my Doctor that Provigil does take 3 or 4 weeks to build up in the body. I can relax about it not working I guess. Today was another dead-tired stumbling up the stairs and flopping down on the recliner day. Naps are good. I like naps. I DON’T like 6-7 hour naps. Naps should be like…1-2 hours. I can’t just take a regular one, I have to have a full fucking rest. Naps eat up my life. I’m hoping for an end to that. I should be doing things in the evening other than sleeping.

I AM keeping up my water intake. I’m hydrated. I’m proud of myself.

The 3D printer and enclosure are completely done and ready to be brought over here. We will probably rent a hand truck to get it up the stairs. I’m impatiently waiting.

I found out yesterday that a new mainline SH game is in the makes, Silent Hill F. I’m excited they’re reviving the franchise, even without Kojima. They were able to do SH2 justice with the remake so I hope this will be as good!


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Oct 07 2024 October 7, 2024 October 7, 2024 NoComment by Eden

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Just preordered SH2 remake!! It will be playable on the 8th! I am looking forward to this.

I finally MADE myself get up and take a shower which made me feel ten times better. I definitely don’t feel great though. I was about to call 911 because the pain in my head and neck was so great. It scared me. I don’t have any Aleve, only Tylenol which doesn’t really affect me. I then took a Naproxen which seems to have worked. Good thing I have more.

I wonder when my WiFi will come back. I have some sites I need to work on. Luckily I have cellular data on my phone, but that doesn’t really help much. I never want to hear the word “hurricane“ again. For real reals.


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May 31 2024 May 31, 2024 May 31, 2024 NoComment by Eden

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Saw some SH2 gameplay last night and I personally think it looks great, it was getting some hate though because people were saying the graphics were bad and some of the combat is janky. I dunno, it looked good to me but then again, I’m relatively easy to please. Not that I don’t recognize if the graphics are shite…but I don’t think they were. And some people were bitching about the hype surrounding it, there’s hype for a reason. Same reason people were hyped about the FF7 remakes. Because they were great games that deserve an update. And no goddam tank controls 😆 Do I think there are things they could improve upon? Yes, absolutely. Hopefully they will have enough time to smooth some things out and make them even better.

I should be hearing from the weight loss center in the next couple of weeks. I’m excited! I really hope Medicaid approves me, if they don’t, I’ll appeal. There’s no reason not to, I did everything right. All the people who are involved, my doctor included, have praised me a lot. I know how much it’s gonna suck after surgery, but I’m prepared. I’m not going in blind and thinking it’s a “quick fix” or whatever. I’m very aware of the downsides of this.


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May 30 2024 May 30, 2024 May 30, 2024 NoComment by Eden

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October 8th, Silent Hill 2 will be available! I’m so excited, I don’t know if I’ll pre-order it or what, it’s $70 usd. Worth it though. I’ve been WAITING very impatiently to hear a date.

Otherwise I have been testing myself on camera for my YouTube channel. I had to know if I sound really stupid or if my voice is annoying. Everything seems normal, I watched myself and wasn’t disgusted lol. I got a ring light too. I don’t know if I need a microphone. Need to do a test run. I already have the software. Excited about that too! Let’s just hope I don’t get flamed too hard for being a girl haha

https://www.youtube.com/@Midnight_Pizza There it is if anyone would like to support me.

I also set up my art channel, who knows when it’ll be active. Soon, I hope. 🤞 https://www.youtube.com/@NemiArts


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May 03 2024 May 3, 2024 May 3, 2024 NoComment by Eden

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I was on interstate today and saw a tire on a big truck literally explode. It scared the SHIT outta me. Little pieces of rubber hit the windshield. It was about twenty feet in front of us in the parallel lane. I happened to be looking right at it when POW, holy shit…we were discussing how that truck shouldn’t have been on interstate to begin with, the equipment it was carrying was too big and heavy for the truck. Anyhow, if it hadn’t been a double tire, that could have been a lot worse. He didn’t stop either!

Went to the game store yet again looking for treasures and found a rather odd game for the Sega Genesis. It’s called ‘Irish the Hedgehog 2’ and said hedgehog looks like Sonic but….green. I was intrigued so I bought it. I wondered if it was official Sonic or a weird knockoff, apparently it is real! And apparently there’s at least two games!

And there he is! Wonder if the whole thing will be green.

I got my room divider today, and was able to get it in the house without help. I feel too crappy to open it and set it up tonight, hopefully I can do that tomorrow. It’s really nice, has shelves and everything. I got some knickknacks for the shelves at Big Lots. I’ll take a pic.

I’m trying to get healthier and take more vitamins and supplements. I’m focused on my B vitamins, particularly B-12. My B-12 levels are supposedly normal, but I think it’s the low end of normal. I always feel like I have no energy, sluggish, tired, blah blah blah. I feel like garbage. HOT garbage, at high noon in the middle of summer, in a dumpster, that’s on fire. I want to talk more in depth to my doc about what I should be taking, but haven’t had a chance because all my visits have been strictly weight loss surgery related, and apparently by Medicaid’s rules you can’t really discuss anything else. I know, I don’t understand it either. My last weight loss appointment is Monday! After that, all this months paperwork gets faxed to Frye’s Weight Loss Center and they turn it in to Medicaid….and then I wait for about a month to be approved or not. They’d better approve me because I have done everything they want. There’s no reason to deny me.


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May 01 2024 May 1, 2024 May 1, 2024 NoComment by Eden

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Well, that was the fastest surgery I’ve ever scheduled. Took like 5 minutes. I’m having cataract surgery on both eyes, sometime in June, I already forgot haha. In any case I am looking forward to it because I might not have to wear glasses anymore. We’ll have to see how it improves.

I got the Dead Space remake on Steam for 22$! It’s usually 59.99$ but went on sale! I’m excited because I really want to play it! I have the original three, wonder how the new one will differ…

My apartment inspection was today, and of course I passed. Mom was certain one of my game shelves was blocking a window which is not allowed and I disagreed. I was right haha. Mom always freaks out about inspections. 🥴


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Apr 09 2024 April 9, 2024 July 4, 2024 NoComment by Eden

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Woooo! My credit rebounded! I was able to order my gaming PC! I’m paying 27$ over 12 months. I had to pay 91$ today. It’s a Dell OptiPlex, with RGB lights all over. So cool, now I can play my pc games! Thank god for that free two day shipping with Amazon Prime lol

edit: dammit, I got the iPad charger I ordered from that website (the one I tried to cancel lol) and it is NOT for a first gen iPad Pro. It’s for the newer ones with the tiny plug. I emailed them to ask about returning it. Who knows if they will get back to me lol


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Apr 07 2024 April 7, 2024 April 7, 2024 NoComment by Eden

Silent Hill: Revelation

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If it’s SH, I’ll play/watch/read.

I ordered it off Amazon. Odd film, doesn’t make sense within the Silent Hill universe. It was entertaining but still. While Pyramid Head is my favorite monster, and it was good to see him again, he only makes sense in the context of SH2. No James, no Pyramid Head. He’s a manifestation of James guilt over killing his wife, he is punishing himself. That’s why PH exists. The town manifests someone’s personal demons. I had the same issue with the first movie, even though I do love it and it’s one of my favorite movies.

I also hate the retconning on his origin. I won’t even get into that hot mess…kinda pissed me off.

Anyhow…I bought a dress at a thrift shop. Everyone should probably have at least one dress in case of a formal event of some kind, unless you absolutely refuse to wear one lol. It’s black, of course. Because what other color would I buy. The last time I wore a dress was my friend’s wedding in 2016. I had no dress shoes either so I had to wear my ratty old boots 😂 It was weird and I felt weird. Actually, because of that wedding, I swore I’d never go to another one! I did not have a good time. My friend’s MOH’s son kind of made fun of me. I said he was a Justin Bieber-lookin’ little shit. Seriously, can’t stand teenage boys.

I just missed my cousins wedding 😕 I was really close with her when I was about 14 and she was about 2. I loved her to death and even read a page of a phone book because she wanted me to. We kind of grew apart which makes me sad, and I did want to go to her wedding. It was three hours away and mom didn’t think dad could tolerate driving that long right now. I was disappointed but when I learned that people would be socializing for two fucking hours between the wedding and reception, I was kind of relieved because we all know how bad I am at that and how it stresses me out. They’re on their honeymoon in Washington state, uncle sent pictures and the landscapes are beautiful. I really hope they are having a good time!


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