Tag: etsy

I’m going out with Karen today, my plan is to hit as many thrift stores as possible and try to find leather jackets. They don’t seem to pop up very often; probably because they get bought quickly. I’ve been lucky a couple of times and got a white one which is beautiful, and a black one.

My plan for the white jacket is to do a punk Sailor Moon theme, which I’m sure will sell. I’m debating about dying it pink before painting the back. I don’t know if I want to deal with the mess, however, as well as any specialty stuff I might have to get to do it correctly. I want to put either spikes or studs on the shoulders or a combination.

The black one, I’m not sure entirely. I was thinking maybe the old Sisters of Mercy logo? The newer one is rubbish (no offence intended, uncle Andy) so I would go with the old one as it’s iconic. I considered doing The Mission as well.

I would love to find a brown one I could distress all to fuck and do a dusty-looking Nephs jacket. That said, I’m getting a bit ahead of myself. I haven’t painted on a jacket in 20 years, and I’d be doing it for someone else, not myself. I might have to break out the actual paint and brushes sometimes which I’ve never used on a jacket. It was always whiteout before. I have a lot to learn if I’m actually going to get anywhere with this, but I am certainly willing to learn whatever I need to. I am excited! Could I be moving towards  a more productive life?

I had my secondary cataract lasered off this morning. Most of the time was spent in the waiting room, then spent about ten minutes in a dark room waiting for the drops to dilate my eye. The actual procedure took about two minutes. I sat in a chair, put my chin and forehead on the rest bars and zap zap zap, it was done. My right eye is still a little bit blurry, I would have thought it would be back to normal hours ago. I’m probably worried about nothing though.

There was suddenly a godawful smell throughout my house, anywhere doors weren’t shut, so I guessed it had to come from the kitchen. It always comes from the fucking kitchen. It was so bad I didn’t want to be in my own house and sprayed air fresheners constantly, but nothing was getting rid of it. I looked all around and found nothing. Mom took a look and brought a bag of rotten apples from the very back of my fridge. How’d I miss that? Well, it’s gone now. It smelled like puke.

Edit: I found a few old pictures on my laptop!

First here’s an itty bitty pic of me from 2003, I was 17 or 18. I don’t know why I cropped it so small.

Next, here is a macro I took of a house spider (jumping spider?) eating a fucking fly. This is the meme I made of it lol. Dad is the one who pointed it out and suggested I take a photo. That’s a can of Pepsi max and a sausage wrapper sitting behind it. This was on my deck. And yes, I am very scared of spiders. This was around 2013. I also did not have a smartphone and was using an excellent digital camera. RIP fly, I guess.

This one is from my terminal Naruto fandom days, specifically 2007 or some time before that. I drew Rock Lee on my thumb, named it “leethumb” and posted it to a bunch of Naruto communities on Livejournal. He was a hit. I was a massive Naruto shitposter back then. Haha

And that’s all, have a good night!




Well, I got what I wished for…sort of

I wished for snow and got it. Unfortunately sleet and ice came with it. Kind of ruins the magic, ya know? I’m praying to whatever gods I can think of that my power doesn’t go out. I had to have my uncle drive me home in his big ass truck because I got stranded at my parents. 😅 Thanks, uncle!

Lordy I got sooo much Temu shit in the mail today, as well as some Etsy stuff and my clothes from VampireFreaks! It all decided to come at once when I was expecting one coat from Etsy and one package from Temu. I have a literal pile. I’m still mulling over doing a Temu haul video. Don’t know if I should. I guess I can blur out my face haha. Should I? I don’t have a balaclava so I can’t do the balaclava-sunglasses thing like I was considering. I just don’t want people seeing my face yet.

Edit at 1am: the fucking snow and ice have finally stopped and my power didn’t go out 👍 I hope mom can get over here today.

I should also mention that the scale at my parent’s house says I’ve lost six pounds.

Listening to: Nosferatu – The Wiccaman




JFC!! I felt pretty bad this afternoon and I thought it was either the unhealthy food or taking my pills a couple hours late, which isn’t usually a big deal. It takes a little longer than that to make me feel really bad. I think it’s the 200mg of provigil, which makes me feel hopeless because it wasn’t until I started taking the 2nd 100mg pill that I was able to stay awake. Is that all going to be taken away from me now? I don’t think I can take the 2nd pill anymore. I’m not going to take it tomorrow and see what happens.

I took half an Ativan and laid down. I realised I needed a nap and fell asleep. I just woke up about 20 minutes ago (midnight) and I feel so anxious like I’m buzzing inside. That’s the only way to describe it. Buzzing, trembling and shaking. I just took the other half of that Ativan and feel maybe a tiny bit better but….what the fuck was that??? I wonder if there’s another one in that family of drugs I can try that maybe won’t fuck me up and FRY MY CENTRAL NERVOUS SYSTEM…😟

Sigh

I claimed my free mothman plush on Temu just now. It’s so cute! I had also gotten bathroom towels that read “live, laugh, lobotomy” 😆 They’re probably really small though. Eh. I think I got something else with that on it too. Temu is becoming a burdensome addiction 😭 I gotta stop!

I went to the storage building with mom and got the bathroom shelves out, because I asked if I could use them since they’ve been sitting there for years. They sit around/above the toilet. Nothing to nail in or anything, not that the building management would let me do that anyhow. I can put towels or little trinkets and doodads on it. I definitely see some Temu stuff being displayed there, like the “please don’t summon demons in the bathroom” sign I got. *cringes at my obsession with that fucking app*

My Etsy wig dude has finished my wig, and mailed it out yesterday but failed to send me a final picture. I just wanted to make sure the bangs were short enough. If it’s not teased enough I can do that, but I can’t cut bangs. If they’re not short enough, I don’t know who I could go to to get them cut and styled. I’m afraid to use mom’s curling iron because it’s stuck on one heat and she doesn’t know if it’s high or low heat. I was told to use low heat. The wig is synthetic and human hair mixed. I am also scared to brush them. Afraid I’ll rip the hairs out. Like if I want to comb out the teasing to clean it or whatever, how safe is that? Are wigs meant to be brushed like normal hair? I’m a total novice. I have lots of questions.

I think I like blabbering in this silly blog because it calms me down, especially after how I have been feeling yesterday/this morning. It’s boring and that’s okay, because no one has to read it. 👌




Gah!

I had $6 in my bank account, suddenly I have $25. Impossible. I do not understand what is going on with my money! Can’t use it because it’ll probably go poof all of a sudden. I hate that.

I got one of my free gifts from Temu, a spiderweb mat. I think I’ll put it in front of the tv. It’s surprisingly large!

Speaking of Temu, I was looking around and found the same adorable bat plushie that I’d ordered off Etsy a couple months ago. It was cheap on Temu and the Etsy seller jacked up the price and I was under the notion that seller was making these herself or had designed them and has a manufacturer, and I was seriously impressed and gave her a glowing review. I’m disappointed. I know it’s not illegal to do this, I just think it’s kind of dishonest. I still love my little bat, he’s so soft, silky and squishy. I’m just astonished that it originally came from Temu and I could have paid a lot less. It’s come to the point that if I see something on Etsy that I want, I check Temu first. I want to support independent creators who make and/or design their wares, not resellers. It’s a shame, really! It’s a good business model but I’m not supporting it if I can help it. If I can get it cheap from China instead of all jacked up, I’ll do so 😆 *snorts*

I was considering doing a Goth Temu haul video on YouTube but I don’t want anyone seeing my icky face yet. Sure, I have my face as my avatar in a couple of places but YouTube? People are assholes there. It’s the anonymous effect. People can talk shit behind a keyboard way more easily than face to face because they know someone might knock their slimy trollish teeth out. I just don’t want to be called ugly 1000 times, no one does. Maybe I should wear a balaclava and sunglasses lol. I know a guy who does that. (The guy who wears that is MR SLAV, great channel.)

I’m chatting with the wig maker on Etsy and I’m trying to decide how I want the bangs. I already asked him to cut them a bit shorter because wig bangs are always over my eyes and I don’t trust I can cut them straight myself. I don’t want to ruin a $100 wig because I’m clumsy and have no idea what I’m doing. I’m just letting him do it haha.

My psychiatrist upped my dosage of Provigil to 200mg. I was on 100. Maybe this amount will give me the kick in the pants I need. If not, I reckon I’ll go up to 250mg, if she’s on board with it.

edit: I didn’t nap this afternoon! 😀 maybe this higher dose will really help!

Listening to: Funhouse – Body and Soul




Ugh, I am getting my hair buzzed next month. It is getting on my damn nerves because the lady at the Greatclips or whichever place it was (I get them mixed up) wouldn’t cut it short enough. This time I’m just telling them to buzz it to one length all over, and not to argue with me. I don’t know why no hairdresser will just listen to me and do what I want. It’s probably the easiest cut to do and I’m paying you, so DO IT. I wish I could go to Jess, my old hairdresser, but her prices have gone sky high and all I can afford is Greatclips. Jess got me. She never gave me grief over a damn haircut. Mom of course doesn’t want me to do it, but it’s my hair and money and it fucking grows back. I’ve been bald or nearly bald plenty of times. She should be glad I’m not growing a death hawk like I did 20 years ago lol. She HATED that. That hawk was so cool. Big, black, and teased all to hell. Ah well. It’s the past. I just want to be completely buzzed and comfortable now, and it makes it easier to wear my wigs and care for my scalp condition. I don’t know if it’ll be worth bleaching when it’s that short. I just hate my boring brown hair. Or dark blonde as Jess called it. And in some pics I look like a strawberry blonde ginger. Haha. I don’t even really know the actual colour of my own hair. 0_o;

Please someone give me tips on how to make a wig cap stay on. Please. They always bunch up on the top of my head after a while.

I think I’m going to ask the lady who runs the crudethings wig shop on Etsy if she will make this one in red:

And maybe without the reallly long bits in the back. Don’t know about that yet. I just think this would look great in a mixed red and burgundy colour. She states she’s willing to make them in different colours. I’m gonna have to wait a few months though until I can afford this wig because it is $300. I can see why, it must take a lot of work, and I honestly love supporting small businesses because they are innovative and provide more unique creations. Would you find this particular wig style anywhere else? Probably not. This shop also has some absolutely crazy dread wigs which are worth looking at, especially if your wardrobe has some colours besides black 😂 They remind me of candy!

Support small creators!

Edit: I once again could not eat tonight. I tried to eat some chowder and only got a few bites in until I got sick. Not sure what to do.




I got my floofy wig and I’m not sure how I feel about it. When it was described as a “rats nest” wig, I gues I thought it would be ratty and floofy, not totally matted in the back. The bangs need to be styled but I don’t really know how to do that. The wig is both synthetic and human hair mixed in. I do not want to singe or melt it. The seller was very gracious in his note that came in the bag, saying if I wasn’t totally pleased, I could have an exchange, a refund or he’d straight up make me a wig. I really appreciated that. I think I’m going to return it and ask him to make me one without all the matting and ask him for tips on styling and if it’s safe to use a curling iron or whatever. It’s actually a pretty wig if it didn’t have the extreme tangling in the back. I love big hair but yeah. He seems like a cool guy so I don’t think he’ll be offended if I ask to return it and get a custom one. ☺️

I love sellers like that.

Edit: I contacted him on Etsy and he was so nice about it! I now need to figure out how to return it to him. I’ve never returned something from Etsy, so I don’t know if they have a return system like Amazon does.




Look what I found

I’m ordering this wig off Etsy;

I can’t grow my hair out anymore because I can’t care for it properly. I miss having long hair but I can’t do it with the scalp condition and whatnot. So, why not wear a wig? I like this one. It’s fluffy but not too fluffy. Ratty but not too ratty (I’ll probably smooth it out a bit though). It’s the hair I’ve always wanted. Theres also has a blond one with dread-like hair and what I call “Dracula bangs”. It’s a lot more expensive than this one.

There’s also a black one like this that I like.

I feel I might be patronising these creators quite a bit! The Etsy shops are artbox888 and crudethings. They’re really the only wigs I’ve seen that I liked. I do need a simple black bob as well. I have two that are eons old but can’t find them.

I saw my dermatologist about my scalp and he seems unsure whether the problem is sebhorric dermatitis or psoriasis. I wish he’d biopsied it. He prescribed me some drops to put on my scalp as well as a special shampoo (ketoconozal). The drops might make my hair greasy and honestly I just have enough fucking problems with my hair and scalp. I don’t know if I’ll use them. I might try, and if it’s too gross I’ll stop. Ugh. I can’t stand my entire head. Everything about it. Throw the whole damn thing away. 😕

I think I regret rejoining facebook. It’s actually ridiculous. I cannot express a non-positive emotion without getting a warning from their censorious, nannying AI. I was off that site for well over a year and it was kind of touchy back then, but it is threefold worse. It’s a load of sanitised fluffy bunny bullshit, and I hate it.

Also, someone started some shit in one of the groups I’m in and I got very angry. I don’t know why I’m bothering to try and make friends. I’m destined to be alone for the rest of my life.

Social media just isn’t good for anyone’s mental health, unless you’re a damn troll. I think I’m done.




The weight loss center got back to me, they’re going to talk to the surgeon about it next week. Let’s hope he’ll decide to give me one more chance.

I got the shirts I ordered off Etsy, they look great. I got one shirt of The Mission and one of Rosetta Stone, bands I can never find shirts of otherwise. Etsy is a treasure trove of stuff like that. I wish that company would make a Children on Stun shirt because you can’t find anything of theirs! I do have a vintage shirt but it’s not the prettiest. I would like a nice one, maybe the owner of that Etsy shop would take a recommendation from a fan? Maybe I’ll also recommend making a London After Midnight shirt because I can’t find one of theirs either. The shop is PoisonCult btw.

I got a new domain – gothic.nu. I’m going to ask a friend to make a layout for it. It’s gonna be a site about goth and a hopefully pretty big directory of sites!

 

edit: if I could have a “normie” job that wasn’t art or whatever, I’d be a night security guard. Yup. Maybe I’ll try for that when I’m feeling better. I’ve always thought that’d be kinda fun, in a weird way…

Also, my adhd is out of control, I cannot concentrate on anything for a damn minute. It’s driving me bonkers!