Tag: Clothes

New collective domain?

I’m changing from windsprite.nu to something else. At first I chose delirium.nu but changed my mind. I’m considering geisha.nu. I also thought of nightshade.nu, duende.nu, night.nu and others. I think I’m probably going to go with geisha though. I already bugged my poor host to change it for me to delirium.nu and she did, now I’m going to have to bug her again. I think geisha is a really pretty name and it alludes to a culture I’ve always been very interested in. I wonder what I’ll name the actual network though. “The Geisha Network” seems kind of blah. Maybe “Suki na koto” (things I like) or “Yaru koto” (things a person should do). “Ikigai ni tsuite” (what makes our life worth living) seems a bit hard to remember but I like it too. I think I like Suki na koto the best. Yeah I’ll go with that one. Best to stick with the Japanese theme, and it describes the network perfectly. Things I like.

I’ve spent a considerable amount of time tonight looking for a short pvc/vinyl black shiny as fuck trench coat. I found some on Amazon and some on Etsy. I’m now very cautious about Etsy because people like to buy cheap shit off Temu and resale it there and I don’t want to pay lots of money to be ripped off and fooled. I’m wary of Amazon because of the quality. I found one I really aesthetically like on Etsy but I’m definitely checking Temu first to make sure. Also it seems that the seller can produce the coats in bulk so how quality can they be? I don’t trust anyone!! I can’t find one on the usual goth clothing sites because the ones I did find don’t come in plus sizes. 🙁 Sucks to be in fat jail lol. At least on Etsy the one I like comes in 4X.

I don’t get paid until Friday at midnight. Hurry up!! At least I’m going to my parent’s house today for a good steak and apple pie. 🙂 Seems I can’t get a good steak anywhere else these days!

Edit: I’ve started planning out the illustration for the back of the Sailor Moon jacket. I’m planning on a “girl gang” theme. Usagi holding a baseball bat with nails over her shoulder and Chibiusa with some sweet brass knuckles. Here are a few of the reference images I’ve found;

I think it’ll look pretty cool, just gotta decide on a final layout and draw it (ugh, it’s so hard for me to draw anime anymore!!), then get some blue or red carbon paper and transfer it. I’m still considering dyeing that jacket pink. I have some pink dye and sealer/finisher in my Amazon cart. I might have to dilute it with alcohol to make it more of a light pastel pink. I’m a little nervous about doing it, what if I fuck it up since I’ve never done this before? I need strips to practice on or something.

The dye is Angelus brand light rose pink and it’s a little darker than I wanted, but I can find no lighter dyes in pink. There doesn’t seem to be a huge abundance of pink leather dye. 🙁 I just want to give it a ‘Pink Ladies’ who’ll beat your ass to a bloody pulp vibe. 😀




I hate being modest. I’ll clarify that I’m mostly modest about my chest. I will not show anything. However, when it comes to pants, I like them very tight. I do not like loose pants or straight legged pants, although there are rare exceptions. I don’t really wear short skirts either, mostly due to accidentally showing my whole ass one time at an Arby’s. Traumatised me for life. It’s mostly just my stupid chest. I decided to try something different though. I was looking for a simple black tank top and having a hell of a hard time, but I think I found one or two on Amazon and Old Navy. I was trying to find one with a slightly higher neckline but with the thin straps. And it has to have a fucking back to it. I don’t particularly like showing my back either. Weird, I know…but that’s how I am. I was going to wear mesh and fishnet tops over them. It’s a good alternative to fucking crewneck graphic tees all the time. Wearing them with skirts, I mean. I wear graphic tees with pants all the time. They just look shite with most skirts imo.

I have mini panic attacks if I feel weird in a top or think it’s too low. I’m having anxiety right now thinking about it. Should I take a gamble and try something new if I can find the right one? I think I like the old navy ones best. Most of the ones on Amazon had the models with tits OUT. It was off putting!

I genuinely think it’s autism. No one raised me to be this way.




The tights I sent back to GoodGoth were $48 and I was kind of counting on getting my money back, but they gave me store credit 🙁 Was there something wrong with them? I checked them for cat hair (gg is very stern about animal hair) and didn’t see any. So why just store credit? I went ahead and used it on jewellery from Alchemy Gothic, they make beautiful stuff. I got my favourite ankh there years ago so I’m glad to have something else from them. It’s a cool looking black bat necklace. Took up all the store credit. I was actually looking for tops that aren’t graphic tees, but nothing was in my size. :/ I got what I could out of it. I don’t know why it’s so difficult to carry plus size clothing, it’s usually what sales out first. Hopefully I’ll be at a point someday that I don’t need plus sizes, because that’s annoying.

I’m trying to install the software for the 3D printer. Wish me luck and that I don’t fuck it up somehow.

Karen told me there’s another guy in my complex who has a 3D printer. I was surprised. I asked her to ask him a few questions for me because he’s had his for years and never had any problems with the building management. I want to know how to clean the air of microplastics in that room so I don’t breathe that crap in, and I want to know if he’s ever had a problem with the noise since it’s about 50 decibels. Anyways I had a bunch of questions, hope she didn’t forget to ask him.

I’m trying to find a cool stl file to print for dad as thanks for him putting that thing together for me. He wanted a skull with AC/DC on it, but I haven’t been able to find anything like that and have no knowledge of 3D modelling software. Maybe I can find him something else AC/DC related and I’ll find him a cool skull thingy as well. I’m going to check Etsy again. I already looked on all the other stl file sites. Wonder if I could pay someone to make one…

Edit: I did find some really neat AC/DC stuff on Etsy. I found an Angus Young statue that I think I’ll print for him as well as the band logo. I also found a skull that you can put stuff in. So there you go, AC/DC and skulls lol. I hope he likes them.




I was supposed to receive my custom wig in the mail today but did not. I was really excited 🙁 Maybe tomorrow? I did get my collar, it’s lovely. Fits my neck (or lack thereof lolol) perfectly.

I went to Outback with Karen and just got Aussie cheese fries this time, didn’t bother with the lunch deal “steak”. The Fries were really good. I am curious as to how they keep the cheese gooey for a longer time than I can at home. Mine just hardens really quickly and I can’t enjoy the gooey-ness 🙁 I have a copycat recipe for cheese sauce I’m gonna use next time I make it. I gave the shredded cheese to mom.

Edit: I was looking at my YouTube analytics and my audience is 100% male. No women whatsoever. At least among people who list their sex in their profile. Some people might not. I guess the stuff I upload (old anime & video game soundtracks, somewhat unknown or obscure music) attracts men. 🤷‍♀️

That still had me scratching my head. 0% female.

This is within the last 28 days, btw. Not all time. But still, come on women! I know you female soundtrack nerds are out there!

Edit #2: why is it so hard to find a goth top with a modest neckline that isn’t a damn crew neck tshirt??? I’m tired of always only wearing tshirts with my skirts. My modesty makes it hard sometimes, I wish I wasn’t that way but I always have been and I doubt that will change…I might be more open to things like tank tops than I was before, the neck has to be higher than usual though. I looked on Temu, I looked on Etsy. Either the neckline wasn’t high enough or it didn’t come in plus sizes.

I just want something different.




I got sick first thing this morning. It was disturbing. I’m not going to elaborate but I probably should have gone to the ER. 🙁

I got the ingredients for loaded fries. Steak fries, Monterey Jack (has colby in it but that’s all I can find), bacon bits, and ranch. That’ll be my unhealthy girl dinner. 😁

Edit: Currently making those cheese fries. I will take a pic if they turn out good.

Edit:

They were okay, but the cheese hardened up before I could really enjoy it. Next time I’m making a cheese sauce. 🫠

I got my VampireFreaks package yesterday and tried on my dress and fishnets and they actually fit! I’m shocked lol. It’s beautiful and more well made than I expected. I was almost certain I’d have to return or exchange something. With a corset (which has been shipped, yay), the dress will fit even better.

I finally opened all my Temu stuff and they did pretty good! Things seem to fit mostly well, except a beetlejuice sandworm necklace. It looked bigger on the page, but don’t they all. I don’t want to return it but yeah. I haven’t tried on the tights I got yet because I’m lazy. Getting that dress off myself tired me out! It was tight on the arms and that made it really difficult. I’m afraid I’ll accidentally rip it.




I was curious and used scalp exfoliant on my face. I probably should not have done that because it feels like it’s gonna itch. I can feel it coming. My face feels smoother though.

I used another exfoliant on my arms and legs. I don’t know if I did it enough. My arms don’t feel any different, maybe I’ll use the scratchy gloves next time.

Why am I talking about this. No one cares 😆

Vampirefreaks is finally shipping the package that I ordered on December 31st. Customer support left me hanging and never answered my last email. I emailed them once again and asked if someone could check on my order. They said it’d be shipped by tomorrow. I’m really looking forward to getting it, the dress is so pretty. I ordered size 2XL/3XL (I don’t know why the sizes are grouped together.) I also got some fishnets with crosses. It’s nice to feel like I can wear dresses and not look like a dude all the time. I’m just really insecure with feminine things but I feel like I’m getting a little better about it. I’m still not showing or emphasising my chest though. I don’t think that’s something I’ll ever choose to do.

Listening to: Nosferatu – The Wiccaman




I got the prettiest blouse in the mail today!! It’s red silk with subtle paisley designs and is vintage 80s, and it looks very 80s! I had to get it because it was so unique looking, I had never seen a blouse like that before. I will take a picture and add it later.


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