Tag: Art

Nov 08 2025 November 8, 2025 November 8, 2025 NoComment by Eden

Photo books

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I was looking at photo books on Amazon and randomly thought of Charles Freger’s series of “Wilder Mann” photos, documenting “wild man and savage” image across Europe. It’s very strange and unexpected folk costume from many European countries that have been worn during various festivals over the centuries. I didn’t know there was a book of it!  I might get it for Christmas. I have never seen the whole collection before. He did a collection of Japanese folk/masquerade costume as well, same concept as the above. He’s done several more of other countries in the same vein, but I’m more interested in Europe and Asia. 💜

Inspired by finding that book, I checked for any books from another photographer I like, Todd Hido. I’m not crazy about what’s posted on his site and instagram recently, but I love his older work. I found a new edition of an apparently hard to come by photo book that was released in 2002. It’s called “House Hunting” and it’s actually my favourites of what I’ve seen of his work. I used to post his photos to a specific Pinterest board obsessively! It’s a series of very atmospheric and eerie photos of houses, usually at night, with the windows lit, and…I’m not sure how to explain them. It’s better to just look 😅 Here is a link to the aforementioned Pinterest board. It’s probably the favourite board I’ve ever made, and I joined Pinterest in 2009 and have made a metric shit ton of boards since, and I was very picky! This one is fucking old as hell too but I still love it. As you can see, I was going for a specific aesthetic and his photos were MADE for that board’s aesthetic goals.

I swear to god WordPress is glitching so bad lately. I’m definitely leaning towards switching to Greymatter.

Edit: None of the links work (except the Pinterest board) and WP won’t allow me to fix them. JFC!! I’ll fix em on my laptop later today, I gotta get on it and make those fanlistings before they’re overdue. Ugh.😤 This is so aggravating. Greymatter it is, when I gain the necessary patience. I need simplicity 🫩


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Feb 03 2025 February 3, 2025 February 3, 2025 NoComment by Eden

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Someone, once again, claims they have identified Jack the Ripper. And once again, I don’t believe it. I don’t think any of their evidence is a smoking gun. The media outlet I saw it on took it as gospel truth without asking any good questions and that deeply annoyed me.

Went to Hickory and hit three thrift stores. I had decided that one cannot subsist on leather jackets alone, so I concluded that I should include jean jackets as well. Well, there are a lot of Jean jackets. I got some and figured I’d dye them black or even other colours. I did find a leather jacket as well. I also found a biker vest with an embossed skull on the back, and it looked pretty new. I found it in the men’s coat rack, I felt pretty lucky to have gotten that before someone else.  I’m not sure what to customise it with, but I don’t want to sell it as-is. The whole point of the shop is things being custom. Unique. Something that would be difficult to find otherwise. I so wish I had someone to bounce ideas off of. I really really do. That would help a LOT. I might bother a friend and ask them what they think. He doesn’t read my blog anymore 🙁

I found what I guess is a child’s size Jean jacket. I figured I’d paint some Sailor Moon on the back and bedazzle it a bit and a kid would love it. See, I think of the children….sometimes! Haha. I found another pretty small one that would fit a really small woman but I think I’ll do the same thing with it. Small sizes are the last to be bought, usually, but if it’s customised specifically for a kid, then it would probably sale. I know I would have loved that stuff when I was a kid or tween. I really just want to make things people will treasure for a long time. Quality is a goal, most definitely.

I had an appointment with my psychiatrist that I just got back from a bit ago, and my medications are changed once again, mostly back to normal. There was one to replace the Provigil, I think it’s called Vivance. She thinks it will help my anxiety a lot. I sure hope so because I cannot keep going this way! She said it would also maybe help my very short attention span. That would be friggin great. I hope I hope. 🤞


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Jan 26 2025 January 26, 2025 January 26, 2025 NoComment by Eden

New collective domain?

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I’m changing from windsprite.nu to something else. At first I chose delirium.nu but changed my mind. I’m considering geisha.nu. I also thought of nightshade.nu, duende.nu, night.nu and others. I think I’m probably going to go with geisha though. I already bugged my poor host to change it for me to delirium.nu and she did, now I’m going to have to bug her again. I think geisha is a really pretty name and it alludes to a culture I’ve always been very interested in. I wonder what I’ll name the actual network though. “The Geisha Network” seems kind of blah. Maybe “Suki na koto” (things I like) or “Yaru koto” (things a person should do). “Ikigai ni tsuite” (what makes our life worth living) seems a bit hard to remember but I like it too. I think I like Suki na koto the best. Yeah I’ll go with that one. Best to stick with the Japanese theme, and it describes the network perfectly. Things I like.

I’ve spent a considerable amount of time tonight looking for a short pvc/vinyl black shiny as fuck trench coat. I found some on Amazon and some on Etsy. I’m now very cautious about Etsy because people like to buy cheap shit off Temu and resale it there and I don’t want to pay lots of money to be ripped off and fooled. I’m wary of Amazon because of the quality. I found one I really aesthetically like on Etsy but I’m definitely checking Temu first to make sure. Also it seems that the seller can produce the coats in bulk so how quality can they be? I don’t trust anyone!! I can’t find one on the usual goth clothing sites because the ones I did find don’t come in plus sizes. 🙁 Sucks to be in fat jail lol. At least on Etsy the one I like comes in 4X.

I don’t get paid until Friday at midnight. Hurry up!! At least I’m going to my parent’s house today for a good steak and apple pie. 🙂 Seems I can’t get a good steak anywhere else these days!

Edit: I’ve started planning out the illustration for the back of the Sailor Moon jacket. I’m planning on a “girl gang” theme. Usagi holding a baseball bat with nails over her shoulder and Chibiusa with some sweet brass knuckles. Here are a few of the reference images I’ve found;

I think it’ll look pretty cool, just gotta decide on a final layout and draw it (ugh, it’s so hard for me to draw anime anymore!!), then get some blue or red carbon paper and transfer it. I’m still considering dyeing that jacket pink. I have some pink dye and sealer/finisher in my Amazon cart. I might have to dilute it with alcohol to make it more of a light pastel pink. I’m a little nervous about doing it, what if I fuck it up since I’ve never done this before? I need strips to practice on or something.

The dye is Angelus brand light rose pink and it’s a little darker than I wanted, but I can find no lighter dyes in pink. There doesn’t seem to be a huge abundance of pink leather dye. 🙁 I just want to give it a ‘Pink Ladies’ who’ll beat your ass to a bloody pulp vibe. 😀


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Jan 25 2025 January 25, 2025 January 25, 2025 NoComment by Eden

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After almost six freaking years, I have FINALLY installed my printer-scanner. It really took that long. To my credit, I tried about a year ago and kept running into problems I didn’t know how to solve. I bought this thing in 2019 in anticipation of moving out of my parent’s house. LAZY. I remember when these things were difficult to install, especially scanners, but I could easily do it back then. This stuff has basically become more plug-n-play since then. I have truly become dumber.

It’s an HP Officejet somethingorother. I don’t even have printer paper lol

I decided on this Sisters image for the first black jacket;

That text will be difficult because it has a little texture to it, I wonder if there’s a way to make a stencil of some sort or a way to transfer the image to the jacket so I can use it as a guide. I always liked that phrase. It’ll be hard not to keep that one for myself.

Edit: I decided on white carbon paper and a small ball point stylus. After looking up ways to transfer drawings onto leather I didn’t really understand most of them (told you I’m not that bright haha) so I thought of that myself. I doubt it’s the best way to do it but all I need is a vague guide to paint on. I’m glad I found that image, it’s the best proportions for that panel on the back of the jacket.

While setting up the printer, I barely did any looking down or bending, and my neck hurt 😞 I don’t know how I’m gonna do anything with that pain. I need to find a solution.

Edit 2: I forgot about the layout marathon I joined! 😓 I think the finished layouts are due on the 29th. It’s food themed. I still don’t know what I’m gonna do. Pizza maybe? Cute shit? Ahhh

Also, Roku remotes suck monkey chunks. They really do. I have two Roku TVs in my apartment. Both remotes have a tendency to just…stop working. That or I have to click four or five times until it responds. Sometimes I just throw it down and wait for it to start working again. It’s so aggravating, I googled “why do Roku remotes suck” and got a lot of people asking the same question, so it’s a common occurrence I guess. I was going to watch something on Discovery+ or Shudder but the remote stopped me dead in my tracks and I had to get back to regular cable lest it stop working altogether. Didn’t want to be stuck without tv. It kept going on and off and saying the internet connection was gone. Goodness. Both TVs do this. Roku needs to listen to its consumers concerns because I’m sure they’ve heard this complaint before.

The batteries in the remote were covered in what I assume were alkaline crystals. I changed them, cleaned it out as best I could, and it worked a little better but was still glitchy as fuck. Batteries die FAST in those.


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Jan 21 2025 January 21, 2025 January 21, 2025 NoComment by Eden

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I went leather jacket hunting and only found a small brown one, which I will further distress and make it a Nephs jacket. It’s kind of small and would probably fit a girl. It’s good practice. All the other leather jackets had a seam down the back, so I didn’t bother because it would ruin the art. I was hoping for motorcycle style jackets but some dude picked up one as soon as I walked in the store and it was the only one 😭 Almost  every other thrift store was closed! I don’t understand that, their weekend is Sunday and Monday, but they’ve started taking Tuesdays off as well. I also checked our local goodwill which is open all week, found nothing. I feel like they moved things around in there and it confused me.

We went and ate and she started talking politics and I was answering vague with stuff like “mhmm” or “I don’t know enough about that to comment on it”. lol. Oh it makes me so uncomfortable. Please do not do that. To be fair, she doesn’t know how much I hate it and I don’t know how to say “I don’t want to discuss politics, please” without sounding rude. 😅

Discussing politics and religion ends friendships, I know this firsthand. Some of my friends were always the aggressive and often straight up hateful ones and I’m just kind of meek and don’t say what I think because I was afraid of losing said friendships. Finally realised they were toxic as radioactive fuck and just left Facebook altogether. Bye bye bye! My mental health got a lot better, I’ll tell you that. Leave Facebook alone if you value your mental health. It’s a treacherous hive of scum and villainy. I promise you’ll be happy you did. This goes for any social media, really, but facebook is where my problem materialised.

I ate too friggin much and thought I was gonna hurl for about an hour. It was miserable. I told karen and mom to please just pimp-slap me as hard as possible if I ever try to order two portions of something again. I think I learned my lesson. Those river chips are so good though.


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Jan 21 2025 January 21, 2025 January 22, 2025 NoComment by Eden

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I’m going out with Karen today, my plan is to hit as many thrift stores as possible and try to find leather jackets. They don’t seem to pop up very often; probably because they get bought quickly. I’ve been lucky a couple of times and got a white one which is beautiful, and a black one.

My plan for the white jacket is to do a punk Sailor Moon theme, which I’m sure will sell. I’m debating about dying it pink before painting the back. I don’t know if I want to deal with the mess, however, as well as any specialty stuff I might have to get to do it correctly. I want to put either spikes or studs on the shoulders or a combination.

The black one, I’m not sure entirely. I was thinking maybe the old Sisters of Mercy logo? The newer one is rubbish (no offence intended, uncle Andy) so I would go with the old one as it’s iconic. I considered doing The Mission as well.

I would love to find a brown one I could distress all to fuck and do a dusty-looking Nephs jacket. That said, I’m getting a bit ahead of myself. I haven’t painted on a jacket in 20 years, and I’d be doing it for someone else, not myself. I might have to break out the actual paint and brushes sometimes which I’ve never used on a jacket. It was always whiteout before. I have a lot to learn if I’m actually going to get anywhere with this, but I am certainly willing to learn whatever I need to. I am excited! Could I be moving towards  a more productive life?

I had my secondary cataract lasered off this morning. Most of the time was spent in the waiting room, then spent about ten minutes in a dark room waiting for the drops to dilate my eye. The actual procedure took about two minutes. I sat in a chair, put my chin and forehead on the rest bars and zap zap zap, it was done. My right eye is still a little bit blurry, I would have thought it would be back to normal hours ago. I’m probably worried about nothing though.

There was suddenly a godawful smell throughout my house, anywhere doors weren’t shut, so I guessed it had to come from the kitchen. It always comes from the fucking kitchen. It was so bad I didn’t want to be in my own house and sprayed air fresheners constantly, but nothing was getting rid of it. I looked all around and found nothing. Mom took a look and brought a bag of rotten apples from the very back of my fridge. How’d I miss that? Well, it’s gone now. It smelled like puke.

Edit: I found a few old pictures on my laptop!

First here’s an itty bitty pic of me from 2003, I was 17 or 18. I don’t know why I cropped it so small.

Next, here is a macro I took of a house spider (jumping spider?) eating a fucking fly. This is the meme I made of it lol. Dad is the one who pointed it out and suggested I take a photo. That’s a can of Pepsi max and a sausage wrapper sitting behind it. This was on my deck. And yes, I am very scared of spiders. This was around 2013. I also did not have a smartphone and was using an excellent digital camera. RIP fly, I guess.

This one is from my terminal Naruto fandom days, specifically 2007 or some time before that. I drew Rock Lee on my thumb, named it “leethumb” and posted it to a bunch of Naruto communities on Livejournal. He was a hit. I was a massive Naruto shitposter back then. Haha

And that’s all, have a good night!


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Sep 05 2024 September 5, 2024 September 5, 2024 NoComment by Eden

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I got some cheap movies & manga off Amazon; Near Dark (80s vampire flick), From Dusk till Dawn (90s vampire flick), Queen of the Damned (2000s vampire flick that I somehow don’t already have 😱), ‘Stitches’ by Junji Ito cuz it was on sale, and the first three or so volumes of ‘Sorcerer Hunters’ because I never got to collect them as a teen.

When depressed, I tend to spend money. Lucky me none of it was expensive…

I sat down and tried practicing drawing hands. Fucking HANDS….I do so hate drawing them. They always look stiff and unnatural. Anyhoo I drew 4 or 5 hands…one or two were pretty decent looking. *pats self on back* Sadly I didn’t find it fun. Just annoying. I want to bring back happiness into my art. As a teen, I didn’t give a rip how the hands looked. I just had fun and people actually liked my art. Now, I can’t even get my “friends” to give a fuck lol. That’s one reason I left facebook. Yeah. I miss the old internet.

Listening to: Sisters of Mercy – Dominion/Mother Russia


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Aug 07 2024 August 7, 2024 August 7, 2024 NoComment by Eden

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My markers came today! I’m shocked at how heavy they are! In any case, they’re beautiful and I already feel inspired to color something. I’m watching Ohuhu tutorials on YouTube to get the basics of how to use them properly. I’ve already learned a number of interesting tricks that I never would have used with my old Prismacolor markers I had as a teenager. Heck, I don’t even know if some of those things were possible. Markers have obviously come a long way since then.

I think I’m gonna try to set up my printer/scanner again. Last time I got annoyed and gave up. I don’t know why it can’t be more simple. Especially the scanner part. The instructions didn’t even say anything really about the scanner. I need a technologically literate person to come to my apartment and do this shit for me. All of it. 😅

Believe it or not, I need another goddam bookshelf. Roses did not have any today. I need to go to the other Roses in Hickory and check. Does Roses even have a website, and can you order from it? Idk. 🤷‍♀️ Almost all my bookshelves are from Roses. I like whatever brand they use. They’re not even that hard to put together as long as I have someone to help. I can’t believe I’m running out of room again, even though I’ve mostly moved to buying e-books rather than actual books. I guess the DVDs I’ve thrifted have taken over most of that space. I seriously have more movies than a friggin Blockbuster! I’ve had a couple of the complex maintenance men stare at my movie/anime collection in awe. Hey, I’ve had over 30 years to collect this shit lol


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Aug 03 2024 August 3, 2024 August 3, 2024 NoComment by Eden

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I tried to draw a little self portrait for a profile pic and…nope. I feel like I have no control over the pencil. The lines are janky and wobbly. At least I tried, right? That’s more than I have been doing.

Another factor is patience, I think. I have very little of it. I was searching ways of building patience. I’ll try some of those things.

I found something interesting. It’s called GeneSight testing. It’s a genetic test compared to a litany of mental health medications and reveals which ones would react best with your DNA and body. I’m going to look into this seriously, I think Medicaid does cover it and a doctor has to order it. I know Dr Johnson would do that for me so I’m going to talk to her about it. I think my medications could be much improved. I have terrible brain fog that makes me worry I have dementia at the age of 39. I am tired constantly and have little energy or drive to do anything. At evening and night, I’m either sleeping or watching videos on YouTube. I could be doing so many other things but I don’t have it in me. I feel apathetic a lot and kind of zombie like. I really think I can do better. The only thing my current meds have given me is moderate stability and that’s not good enough anymore. I want to live my life!


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Aug 01 2024 August 1, 2024 August 1, 2024 NoComment by Eden

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I ordered the 320-count set of Ohuhu alcohol markers. $17 a month through Affirm (seriously thank god for that company, it makes things more accessible to those of us who are lower income)

My heart is happy.

I have an ollld drawing I’m going to test my markers on as a way to ease back into drawing.

I was with my peer support Kim today (the one that drives me nuts sometimes lol) and we called the Enola artist group because we hadn’t heard back from them after sending them the psychiatric evaluation. I guess she didn’t know she was on speakerphone because she straight up said “she’s not SUITABLE for our program”. It made me feel really crappy. It’s like she was talking about a beat up old car or something and not a person. Suitable. I fit in SUITABLY the last time I was there. She actually said my other mental health problems outweighed my autism!! I really don’t think she would have said that if she knew I could hear her.


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