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Jan 28 2025 January 28, 2025 January 28, 2025 NoComment by Eden

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My pop socket didn’t come today AGAIN, but I did get two bags from Temu. They never stop coming haha. The pop socket is still in fucking Greensboro. It should be here tomorrow but then again, I said that yesterday.

I’m making an attempt to snack healthier, so I got some apple slices and caramel dip from Walmart. I know the caramel isn’t the most healthy thing but hey, it’s better than cheez its. 🤷‍♀️

I still have no clue what to do with my malfunctioning printer. Might have to drag dad over here. I seriously have no idea of what I’ve done wrong. Maybe the black ink and colour ink are switched around? I considered that last night and tried to open the bottom to switch them but it wouldn’t open. 0_o What do I do??

Listening to: Nosferatu – Darkness Brings


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Jan 27 2025 January 27, 2025 January 28, 2025 NoComment by Eden

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Noooo somethings wrong with my printer! It prints very light or even blank pages! I’m not sure how to fix this. The scanner works fine. That’ll teach me to try to set stuff up myself! I never get it right 😓

I got my new phone case and I’m waiting for my new pop socket to come in the mail. It should be here tomorrow. I got both on Etsy. The pop socket is a cute little bat from the shop KRDRdesigns. The case is black with spiderwebs and it’s from the leicestercase shop. I needed a new set, I feel like I’ve had the same case forever.

I can’t wait to get paid so I can get my new domain! I have all my sites updated already and waiting to upload. My host had to get rid of all my subdomains before she could change it for some reason. I asked if she’d just set up the same subdomains in the new one, geisha.nu. When I get to order it, that is.

Edit: I am so bored and anxious. I don’t know what to do when I’m like this. I can’t sleep yet.

I wish I had somebody to bounce ideas off of. It’s just that no one reads my blog, probably because it’s so boring haha. I never get any feedback on stuff when I really need it. It’s pretty lonely on here.

Edit: for my own reference; a recipe for Cheese sauce for nachos and cheese fries


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Jan 26 2025 January 26, 2025 January 26, 2025 NoComment by Eden

New collective domain?

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I’m changing from windsprite.nu to something else. At first I chose delirium.nu but changed my mind. I’m considering geisha.nu. I also thought of nightshade.nu, duende.nu, night.nu and others. I think I’m probably going to go with geisha though. I already bugged my poor host to change it for me to delirium.nu and she did, now I’m going to have to bug her again. I think geisha is a really pretty name and it alludes to a culture I’ve always been very interested in. I wonder what I’ll name the actual network though. “The Geisha Network” seems kind of blah. Maybe “Suki na koto” (things I like) or “Yaru koto” (things a person should do). “Ikigai ni tsuite” (what makes our life worth living) seems a bit hard to remember but I like it too. I think I like Suki na koto the best. Yeah I’ll go with that one. Best to stick with the Japanese theme, and it describes the network perfectly. Things I like.

I’ve spent a considerable amount of time tonight looking for a short pvc/vinyl black shiny as fuck trench coat. I found some on Amazon and some on Etsy. I’m now very cautious about Etsy because people like to buy cheap shit off Temu and resale it there and I don’t want to pay lots of money to be ripped off and fooled. I’m wary of Amazon because of the quality. I found one I really aesthetically like on Etsy but I’m definitely checking Temu first to make sure. Also it seems that the seller can produce the coats in bulk so how quality can they be? I don’t trust anyone!! I can’t find one on the usual goth clothing sites because the ones I did find don’t come in plus sizes. 🙁 Sucks to be in fat jail lol. At least on Etsy the one I like comes in 4X.

I don’t get paid until Friday at midnight. Hurry up!! At least I’m going to my parent’s house today for a good steak and apple pie. 🙂 Seems I can’t get a good steak anywhere else these days!

Edit: I’ve started planning out the illustration for the back of the Sailor Moon jacket. I’m planning on a “girl gang” theme. Usagi holding a baseball bat with nails over her shoulder and Chibiusa with some sweet brass knuckles. Here are a few of the reference images I’ve found;

I think it’ll look pretty cool, just gotta decide on a final layout and draw it (ugh, it’s so hard for me to draw anime anymore!!), then get some blue or red carbon paper and transfer it. I’m still considering dyeing that jacket pink. I have some pink dye and sealer/finisher in my Amazon cart. I might have to dilute it with alcohol to make it more of a light pastel pink. I’m a little nervous about doing it, what if I fuck it up since I’ve never done this before? I need strips to practice on or something.

The dye is Angelus brand light rose pink and it’s a little darker than I wanted, but I can find no lighter dyes in pink. There doesn’t seem to be a huge abundance of pink leather dye. 🙁 I just want to give it a ‘Pink Ladies’ who’ll beat your ass to a bloody pulp vibe. 😀


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Jan 25 2025 January 25, 2025 January 25, 2025 NoComment by Eden

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After almost six freaking years, I have FINALLY installed my printer-scanner. It really took that long. To my credit, I tried about a year ago and kept running into problems I didn’t know how to solve. I bought this thing in 2019 in anticipation of moving out of my parent’s house. LAZY. I remember when these things were difficult to install, especially scanners, but I could easily do it back then. This stuff has basically become more plug-n-play since then. I have truly become dumber.

It’s an HP Officejet somethingorother. I don’t even have printer paper lol

I decided on this Sisters image for the first black jacket;

That text will be difficult because it has a little texture to it, I wonder if there’s a way to make a stencil of some sort or a way to transfer the image to the jacket so I can use it as a guide. I always liked that phrase. It’ll be hard not to keep that one for myself.

Edit: I decided on white carbon paper and a small ball point stylus. After looking up ways to transfer drawings onto leather I didn’t really understand most of them (told you I’m not that bright haha) so I thought of that myself. I doubt it’s the best way to do it but all I need is a vague guide to paint on. I’m glad I found that image, it’s the best proportions for that panel on the back of the jacket.

While setting up the printer, I barely did any looking down or bending, and my neck hurt 😞 I don’t know how I’m gonna do anything with that pain. I need to find a solution.

Edit 2: I forgot about the layout marathon I joined! 😓 I think the finished layouts are due on the 29th. It’s food themed. I still don’t know what I’m gonna do. Pizza maybe? Cute shit? Ahhh

Also, Roku remotes suck monkey chunks. They really do. I have two Roku TVs in my apartment. Both remotes have a tendency to just…stop working. That or I have to click four or five times until it responds. Sometimes I just throw it down and wait for it to start working again. It’s so aggravating, I googled “why do Roku remotes suck” and got a lot of people asking the same question, so it’s a common occurrence I guess. I was going to watch something on Discovery+ or Shudder but the remote stopped me dead in my tracks and I had to get back to regular cable lest it stop working altogether. Didn’t want to be stuck without tv. It kept going on and off and saying the internet connection was gone. Goodness. Both TVs do this. Roku needs to listen to its consumers concerns because I’m sure they’ve heard this complaint before.

The batteries in the remote were covered in what I assume were alkaline crystals. I changed them, cleaned it out as best I could, and it worked a little better but was still glitchy as fuck. Batteries die FAST in those.


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Jan 25 2025 January 25, 2025 January 25, 2025 NoComment by Eden

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Sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever be able to accomplish all the things I want to. There’s so many things, I don’t think I could list them all.

On a more annoying note, I got my shower caddy from Temu and had to get my money back. There were no instructions and I have fiddled with it endlessly. If there’s a way to put this thing together, I can’t find it. Colour me disappointed.

I got my Charlotte Dobre “Move in the Shadows” t shirt today! I ordered that sucker at the beginning of December and have been impatiently awaiting it. I love it, it’s HUGE. Only a 2x but big and cozy. Go watch her channel. I love Charlotte 💕

My corset came and I’m pleased with it for the most part. I do wish it would suck in my stomach more like it does my sides. It’s laced up the back, maybe I’ll have mom try to tighten it. It definitely gives me more of an hourglass figure and I can definitely believe it takes 4 inches or close to that off my waist. The Etsy store I got it from is Corsetland.

I’m apparently getting another big ole bag of Temu shit today, they never seem to stop coming haha. Don’t know if I’ll make another video for this one, I haven’t even figured out how to edit the first one!


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Jan 24 2025 January 24, 2025 January 24, 2025 NoComment by Eden

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I wish I knew how to use editing software. I am not tech smart anymore and am not hiring someone to do it for me. I’m not going to make money on videos for a looong time, if at all. You have to have 1000 subs I think, and then can apply for monetisation. My personal YouTube account only has 500+ subs and that’s after more than 12 freaking years of sporadically uploading music. It’s hard to get subs! To get subscribers, you have to make good videos and I do not know how to turn the ideas in my head into reality.

Edit: I truly have the attention span of a gnat.


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Jan 23 2025 January 23, 2025 January 24, 2025 NoComment by Eden

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Oscar did the most unhinged thing he’s ever done while I was in the shower. He actually jumped in with me. And would not get out. I almost screamed when he touched my leg. He finally got out on his own. The hell, buddy? Are you going nuts? Oh, he jumped in again after I got out and started licking the shower floor 🤢  WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT?!

Jeebus!

Edit: Now I’m in bed and he’s lying next to me with a very smug look on his face.

Edit 2: I watched the video I made and what the fook? I must have said “very nice” about 15 times throughout its 40+ minute run time! Borat pics are definitely making an appearance when I’m editing. Also “I like it” was frequent, but not as much as “very nice”. What is wrong with me lol. I must have been a little nervous.

Listening to: Seraphim Shock – After Dark


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Jan 23 2025 January 23, 2025 January 24, 2025 NoComment by Eden

I did it

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I made the Temu haul video, all without showing my face. My phone made it hard to show it anyhow. I don’t know if I should get a tripod or something to kind of distance it from myself because you could hear everything, every fucking noise I make. Lip smacking, every breath etc. I mailed it to myself and have to edit it for YouTube. I’m going to put it on my art channel. Before I actually post any art haha. I’ll post it here when it’s done. I hope I’m not too annoying, I hope my voice isn’t stupid sounding. I thought it sounded okay. Sometimes I make stupid comments though lol. I might bleep out some of the dumb shit. I don’t know if I have the personality for YouTube honestly, I should stick to Temu hauls, gaming and art videos. Definitely not reaction stuff, oh no. I definitely don’t have the charisma. I never have that much to say to begin with as I’m a relatively quiet person. That probably doesn’t translate to YouTube well.

I had a crisis last night. All of a fucking sudden, I started thinking about what’s going to happen when mom isn’t here anymore. I was petrified. I cried and emailed her explaining what was going on. Mom is turning 75 this year!! How long do I have left with her? Women on her side of the family tend to live to their late nineties or even make it to one hundred. I hope it’s the same for her if she doesn’t get lung cancer from all the god damn smoking she does. In the email I said “and stop smoking!!!!!!!!!”. I was hoping it would trigger something in her to realise she has to quit. My friend (actually a friends mom but she was my friend as well) got lung cancer and passed away and it was just awful and sad and…I never want to see anyone else suffer like that, especially not one of my parents. I would be beyond devastated. “Emotionally Obliterated” are probably the best words to use. Smoking is a personal choice and I don’t think it should be banned or anything, I just know it hurts people and they need to know it could hurt them…and I have the right to bug her to quit because I love her. I used to smoke when I was 16/17 but quit without any problems. I just don’t know why she can’t. I’ve tried to get dad to quit too, he exclusively vaped for many years but suddenly started smoking again! Mom quit for a couple years and suddenly started back again too. I don’t understand the allure of it, sure it looks cool in photos and drawings, I’m not gonna pretend it doesn’t, but it tastes like shit! Any kind of respiratory problem scares the shit out of me so lung cancer is terrifying. I don’t know what it feels like to have it obviously but I imagine it’s awful! I don’t want anyone I love to go through it. Again.

That was a huge ramble and I don’t know if it made sense. I guess I’m still a little bit upset.

Edit: She did spend some extra time with me today. We went to Boulevard BBQ, got some river chips with ranch and talked for a while. It was pleasant. I really love my mom even if we don’t always agree. She said she was going to work on a plan for me for after she’s gone, because dad can’t deal with things the way she does and I certainly can’t. I love dad but if it was just me and him, we’d both be screwed haha. The day ended on a good note and I feel somewhat better.


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Jan 23 2025 January 23, 2025 January 23, 2025 NoComment by Eden

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I came home yesterday afternoon and was kind of sleepy but figured I couldn’t nap because of the provigil. I actually got a nap in though. I was feeling the same way the day before and there was no way to nap because I had accidentally taken the 200mg provigil. It was absolutely miserable! Being tired but sort of buzzing inside with weird energy. I have been like that for a couple of days now and I hate it so much, I don’t know why I’m suddenly feeling sleepy like that. I hope it doesn’t last. Might have to speak to the psychiatrist about that if it doesn’t stop. Also I’m questioning why I felt tired at all on the 200mg pill, that’s concerning. This medication is given to narcoleptics ffs. I wish I could get a chance to go to the cpap place and get the stupid thing fixed. They’re only in on certain days. I think wearing it would probably help a lot. It’s been a while since I’ve worn it. Months.

I snazzed up my Pinterest boards. I also archived a lot of them, I had too many. Most of them haven’t been updated in a decade or more but I plan on getting on and updating/editing them. I have had that account since 2009, thats why I was able to get the username “river”. I was watching Firefly at the time lol. Sooo much on the recipes board haha. Here it is.

I have a big ole Temu bag in my dining area, ready to be opened. I haven’t done it yet because I am itching to make that Temu haul video but can’t get up the courage! I was also happy to find that the shower caddy I ordered is finally on its way to me. I hope it’s not too small and that it will actually suction to the shower wall and not just fall off. At least I know I can “return” it if it sucks. My shower has few places to put things and I have numerous things I use. I hope it’s useful. Sometimes it’s a gamble with Temu but at least  I know I can get money back.

My parents bread maker stopped working, so OF COURSE I check fucking Temu and there are indeed bread makers on there. I’m gonna do some research on the one I’m looking at and if all seems good, refer my parents to it. I love when they make warm, fluffy, buttery bread. We make it a whole dinner, just pepperoni bread and butter. It’s delicious. The one I was looking at was about $60. Not too bad at all, if it’s any good.


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Jan 22 2025 January 22, 2025 January 22, 2025 NoComment by Eden

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I went jacket hunting once again and found nothing 🙁 If someone wants to donate an old beat up biker style jacket I would be really happy lol.

This was my first time seeing Bobbie in a couple years! It was good to see her. I noticed her hair wasn’t pink anymore. She said it was too hard to maintain. Kind of agree, I’m lazy and always let my roots grow out too much.

I had a sugar episode or whatever and had to come home early and drink a glass of milk, which always fixes it for some reason.

I really need to find a better way to source jackets. Thrift stores are not reliable enough. If anyone has a good idea, let me know. I can’t spend much money on them until I find out if mine will actually sell. Then maybe I could invest in them more.

I have been so damn cold for the past week and couldn’t understand why. My dumb, negligent ass forgot to look at the thermostat. 64f. I keep it on 68f all year long, but it went down somehow. I’m not sure how the thermostat in this place works because I’ve never had to change or mess with it since I moved in. Mom fixed it and I was able to sleep comfortably last night.