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Mar 01 2025 March 1, 2025 March 1, 2025 NoComment by Eden

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Me and mom had a BAD fight today. Words were said. Bad ones. So I had a shitty day. Now I’m hunkered down in my chair, bored as hell. I don’t know what to do, really. 

I’m back to taking long naps in the afternoons and sometimes later at night. I’m not happy. I see my psychiatrist next week. I will ask her to do something about it.

Oscar has his vet appointment also next week and as I said before, I dread it. I hope he’s okay. I plan on putting him back on Hills Science Diet and wet food every couple of days because that’s what I can afford. I went all this time without knowing much about cat health and that’s my fault. I just did what I always did with my past cats. I didn’t know about ckd or anything like that. I really should have studied it more before he became a senior cat. Now he’s 10 and I feel like I could have done a lot more for his health. I’m getting ahead of myself again because I don’t know if anything is actually wrong with him. I always imagine the worst case scenario.

I think I’m going to try Chime mobile banking. Telco’s app has turned to shite and I can’t depend on it anymore. I’m going to test chime out and see if it’s any better before doing anything rash.

Edit: god damnit! A bunch of my anime fanlistings are on troubles at TAFL!!! I sent ALL the moved or closed forms in a long time ago, I even wrote about it here. I only received an email about one of them from the staff even though a whole bunch are on troubles. I honestly think something is going on with their email, and I do not want to be punished for some glitch, or for someone not checking that email. I do not need that strike on my record. I’m going to email the staff, hopefully it goes through. 😑

Edit 2: okay I emailed all the senior staff. I asked if someone could look into the matter.

As if my day wasn’t shitty enough, now I have that to stress over…


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Feb 27 2025 February 27, 2025 February 27, 2025 NoComment by Eden

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I’m pretty sure Bobbie got fired. I think she had too much on her back and couldn’t handle it. 🙁 I’m really going to miss her. I don’t know who they’ll assign me to now, probably someone I don’t know. I hope whoever it is is more laid back like Bobbie is.


Feb 27 2025 February 27, 2025 February 27, 2025 NoComment by Eden

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I feel like my face is covered in cat hairs. My face itches and my eyes itch. I just brushed Oscar to try to get rid of some of it. I don’t brush him often enough. I have never seen such a freaking pile of hair in my life. He is getting sheared this summer, I swear to god.


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Feb 25 2025 February 25, 2025 February 25, 2025 NoComment by Eden

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I have an appointment in March to get these ugly eyebrows lasered off my face! I’m excited!


Feb 24 2025 February 24, 2025 February 24, 2025 NoComment by Eden

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I’m trying out Spotify for the first time today, I used it in the car. I like it so far. There’s a ton of really diverse playlists that others have made. I think I used it on my tv once before on my ps4. The only thing I don’t like is, probably like most people, the ads. I’m not paying $11 a month for premium. Kind of ridiculous.

I like watching police body cam videos because they can either be entertaining or scary. I saw one the other night of this raging drunk girl who I think also took something else, because she was both really happy AND belligerent somehow. She told the officer “You have a moustache! I don’t trust you!” And he said “I know it’s not a very good moustache, sorry.” And I thought that was hilarious for some reason. To counter that funny one, I saw another one with dad in which the cops were doing a welfare check on a woman who was scared of her husband because she had filed for divorce, and the house was just full of corpses. 8 of them. Of course they were blurred out. The guy had killed his whole family. It was extremely disturbing. People are so fucked up it’s crazy. Why’d he have to kill his kids? They were completely innocent in the situation.

I’m starting to worry about Bobbie. She hasn’t answered my text from yesterday. I keep thinking she’s been fired or something. I hope not. 🙁 I would really miss her. Hope she answers.

Oscar finally has a vet appointment and I do dread it because I’m scared the vet will tell me he has diabetes or ckd or both. That would destroy me. I love him like my own kid. He’s my best bud. I just want him to be okay. I should have kept him on Hills Science Diet even though it is a little bit expensive. I’m going to put him back on it regardless. I’m gonna cry when he begs for treats though. Maybe I’ll sneak him one once in a while…

My stupid banking app is no longer subtracting the pending transactions from my available funds. That’s why my money got fucked up this month. I’m going to the bank tomorrow to ask why this is and what kind of ridiculous update they did to make this happen. If they don’t fix it, I might change banks, maybe online banking this time. Pain in the ass!

Edit: I looked up the Greymatter blogging software on a whim and someone has updated it on GitHub! It is also possible to import WordPress posts. I’m seriously considering switching over. I appreciate its simplicity and customisability. I could make my own layouts like I used to. We shall see!


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Feb 21 2025 February 21, 2025 February 21, 2025 NoComment by Eden

Well shit.

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My credit dropped 60 points because of an Ulta card I forgot about and never got a bill from. Now my credit is below average. This shit makes me so nervous and generally upset. It’s dropped like this before and then went back up, but I don’t know if it will this time, because delinquent accounts stay on your credit report for seven years. I don’t know if there’s anything I can do about it.


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Feb 19 2025 February 19, 2025 February 19, 2025 NoComment by Eden

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I finally got a new belt. Exciting, right? 😅 The one I was wearing was made of a weird material and it twists around and messes the top of my pants up. I had to get a man belt, the women’s didn’t look like they were strong enough to not twist around.

I was supposed to go out with Karen today but canceled. I am mentally fatigued and I swear if she started talking politics at me again, I would totally go off on her. I’m just tired and don’t even know what I want to do. I hope Bobbie will come tomorrow or Friday. She’s only coming every other week now, which sucks. They gave her too much of a caseload and she’s struggling to handle it. I think she has more than any of the other peer supports. Not sure why they did that to her.


Feb 18 2025 February 18, 2025 February 19, 2025 NoComment by Eden

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23&me updated my genealogy report! I got more information that was very specific to my German immigrant ancestors probably mostly on my moms side. Even told what nearby cities they settled in. It’s kind of amazing. I always get really excited when I get an email saying my genetic report is updated. It’s rare but it happens maybe once a year. Also I keep checking my genetic relatives hoping a long lost sibling will join 😂 Dad told me I may have one floating around in Georgia. He was a real dog before he met my mom lol


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Feb 18 2025 February 18, 2025 February 18, 2025 NoComment by Eden

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http://endymion.nu has a temporary layout thanks to Ainna! That’ll stay until I can think of something else.

I’m not having a good time of it lately. Just depressed and feeling stuck. Not a lot to say either.


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Feb 16 2025 February 16, 2025 February 16, 2025 NoComment by Eden

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I’m so bad at communicating with other humans and everyone seems to either be mad at me about something and/or thinks I’m a dumbass. Maybe I should quit. Just…quit. I’m tired of it and emotionally exhausted. I never liked most people anyways, so why do I try? Maybe it’s just being human…trying to connect. But I think I have no signal to make that connection 😞 like crappy WiFi or something.

You know what…to hell with it. Fuck people. I’ll stick with talking to animals thankyouverymuch.


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