Ya know….of the 8 billion people on this planet, I honestly think an ungodly percentage have less than good intentions towards other humans. I can’t say I’ve lost my faith in humanity, because I NEVER HAD ANY TO START WITH. None! Zero zip zilch. I know this is very un-Christian of me, but…fuck em. I didn’t expect to suddenly start liking people after I converted. And I certainly haven’t. I don’t know if I ever will, actually.
There are a lot of soulless bastards out there. They celebrate political assassinations because people with different beliefs must be eliminated, right? They’re fascists! They don’t even know the definition of “fascist”. Basically, their philosophy is “everyone I don’t like is LITERALLY HITLER”. Fucking insane. Some are celebrating the murder of the Ukrainian woman on the Charlotte light rail, which is not that far from me. Because of her complexion. I’m fucking disturbed this happened in my state. Our shite governor barely had anything to say about it, he had to be shamed into it. Just like Helene last year, he did not care. Many also take glee on the 24th anniversary of almost 3,000 people being horribly maimed and murdered. If you’re okay with any of that, get fucking bent, and then seek professional help. In that order.
I’m done dealing with the majority of people, even the ones I used to call close friends, because some of them actually are kind of like this. I didn’t find that out until facebook came along. Seeing every fucking disgusting thought that crosses someone’s mind in the form of a status can really cause resentment. I was thinking “How the hell am I friends with this person?!” upon learning exactly how they thought of people like me. They never say it to you directly, they just say horrible shit that is obviously aimed at people with similar beliefs to mine. Once I found out how they really felt, I was done. Totally done. I abandoned that hellscape of a site about three years ago. I don’t really have social media. It did wonders for my mental health. Doomscrolling on facebook and realising a lot of your friends are very nasty people is….well, it massively fucked with my head. Made me depressed. Anxious. Afraid to speak out. It was SO unhealthy! Sometimes you just have to untether yourself from the bullshit. Cut the line. Be free.
Sometimes I’m scared to write blog posts about how I’m really feeling. I’ll post and wind up deleting it later out of sheer anxiety. People are so virulently hostile these days. It’s actually frightening. Back in the early 2000s, I used to deal with “flaming” all the damn time. If you had an online presence, it came with the territory. However, it was mostly tame stuff like “ur gay lol”, “ur art sux”, posting pics of wieners repeatedly on your tagboard (yes that happened lol) or my absolute favourite one, “your face looks like a slapped arse!”. Haha. Now, people say shit like “you deserve to die” or other threatening stuff. Things have changed so much in 25 years. People have gone totally batshit. Coo coo bonkers. You can’t have a dissenting opinion without some creep wishing death on you or threatening to doxx or whatever. IRL, they try to incite violence on people they disagree with. Seen that too many times. It’s crazy.
TL;DR: people are gross, icky creatures that desperately need to re-evaluate themselves, their morals, and their actions.