Haven’t written in a while! Nice to see you again, my poor, neglected blog! 😅 I got addicted to a stupid mobile game and instead of writing when I get home, I play that friggin game! I swore that Cat Game would be my only mobile game, but I kept seeing adverts for those screw games. I finally caved and downloaded one. It satisfies my desire to sort things by colour. I don’t know why, but I have a strong urge to do that. It has a butt ton of ads, definitely a racket, but I still enjoy it, even though sometimes Royal Match/Royal Kingdom 2 minute long adverts sometimes pop up and those are the bane of my existence. Well, one of them at least. I always report adverts for that game for being “obscene”,  which is not a lie, because they are obscenely LONG. No one wants to sit through a fricken 2 minute advert (and more because of the demo) for your game. No one. Not one person on earth. It is not that awesome. lol I needed to get that out 😂 Anyways. This screw game is like catnip. Or maybe crack. Yeah, definitely crack.

I went out with Kellie yesterday and got another large amount of movies that I have no place to put yet. I’m aiming for having more movies than a Blockbuster haha. Shoot, I probably already do. Two Blockbusters then. 😆 I’m awful at managing my own space, as I have said before. If Roses would restock their furniture worth a crap, I could get a shelf! Roses sucks, but their shelving units are actually affordable and well made. That’s probably the only thing they get right, because they seem to have ruined Big Lots since they bought it. The one in my town hasn’t reopened just yet, but I’ll take a look when it does. Maybe it won’t suck as much, but I don’t have much hope. Ugh I miss that place. Also, JoAnne closed for good today ☹️ I believe every store closed. It’s a real shame, now there’s no place to get fabric. I should have gone and bought a ton of my favourite ones. Everything was 80-95% off but I’m dumb and waited until yesterday because I didn’t actually know the closing date and figured there was a little more time before they sold out of everything. There was nothing in there at all. It was sad. Just another empty building in this town…and one more place I loved, gone. I so wish I had bought all their crushed velvet. It’s my favourite material.

China King Buffet, the one that changed management and completely snafu’d the buffet, is now closed for “renovations”. I don’t think that’s really what they’re doing, they realised they dun goofed and are trying to regroup and do damage control or something. 😬 I think they lost a lot of business because of their counterproductive changes. They should have known people weren’t going to like what they did, but they did it anyways. Oh well, FAFO. 🤷‍♀️ Yeah, I’m still pretty mad. Still gotta find a new Chinese buffet. I miss crab Rangoon so bad.

I got Subway before I came home, and I think the girl that made my sandwich didn’t really know what she was doing. I’m not going into it because it aggravated the shit out of me, but it was so dumb! Do you not know what the flipping menu says is on the sandwich?? It’s right there, why are you fighting me on that? I am perfectly capable of going full Karen. I did it at a Pizza Hut a while back, but it was totally justified. I asked for the manager and everything 😆 I haven’t gotten food from them since, just like I said to that manager I wouldn’t. I hold food grudges pretty bad. I wouldn’t go near one place for twenty freaking years because the manager pissed me off when I was 17 and job hunting, and I was hoping to apply there. He wouldn’t even let me get an application form!

I once again prayed for God to send me a best friend. I have to believe it’ll happen… it’s something I need so badly. I feel pretty isolated sometimes. Not a nice feeling. It’s better than it was before I moved out of my parents house, because they were my whole world. They were the only people I talked to for the most part. Add in the depression, and it ended badly. At least the hospitalisation was the catalyst for me getting my own place. I was hospitalised in late January/early February of 2019 and moved out by August of 2019. Went off on a tangent again! I really never had a best friend. I thought I did, but later realised they were mentally and occasionally physically abusive. Also, toxic as hell. She made me feel bad about myself and always criticised everything I did in a non helpful way. I do not talk to her anymore. She was very selfish throughout our friendship and did ONE good thing for me in the 25+ years we’d been “friends”. One thing. I was grateful for that one thing, but that was it. She was a taker, not a giver. She took and took and took, invaded my privacy, disregarded any boundaries I’d set, and lied and went back on her word and said hurtful things and a lot more than that…honestly I just want to experience a real friendship. I need it so much. I hope my prayers are answered. I pray on it every night. A real friend. That would be…so wonderful. A totally platonic soulmate. I dream of it. I so badly need that connection.

Geez, I’m trying to remember what else I’ve done since I last wrote. It hasn’t been that long…but my memory sucks. I can’t remember shite 😭

At least I get paid at midnight!