The breathing was so bad today. It started when I took a shower and dried my hair. My breathing always gets out of whack when I dry my hair because I’m moving my upper body a lot. It fucking started again at 3pm and I got no relief until 9 or 10. Constantly needed a deep breath and could not get one often enough. It made me sweat. I was only breathing manually. I have an appointment with my doctor Monday. I’m hoping she can tell me something. I actually considered going to the hospital tonight because I just couldn’t do it anymore. But I didn’t. Maybe I should have. I was freaking exhausted from the laboured breathing that went on for HOURS….I tried so hard to control it and take my mind off it when I went out with my parents, but it lasted all through dinner. Only when I got home and laid back in the recliner for a while was I able to calm it and get some fucking peace. I’m so nervous it’ll start again.
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