Being simultaneously bored and nervous sucks. I kind of ran out of things to watch. It’s 3am and I’m already itching to get out of here. I hate feeling like this, I want to enjoy being in the place I call home, but I can’t. I don’t know if it’s mental or what, but every time I walk in here from being out, I feel nauseous and anxious. I can’t explain that. It makes zero sense.
Endymion.nu is finally active but I guess the dns hasn’t resolved yet. I want to get in there and fix stuff up and attempt to install enth myself. I always mess it up though. Might have to ask for help…again. 😑 I don’t want to bother the person who usually helps me with that stuff though. So I’ll give it a go. God I hate installing those things!
I really need to talk to my therapist. I don’t remember when my next appointment is. I don’t even want to think where my mind would be at if I hadn’t changed my medications back and started the Vivance. That would be bad. Very bad. I’d OD on Ativan, probably.