Anxiety.
I have terrible anxiety today, maybe because I forgot to take my provigil when I took my pills? I have forgotten it several times but never had this happen. It’s all I can think of that’s different. I think I just want to go back on my old mediocre meds and be done with this stupid experiment. I had such high hopes too. *heavy sigh* That’ll teach me, right?
I went out with Karen this morning and it was fun. I had a good time. I don’t know what brought this on, I wish so bad I was at my parents house right now. I NEED to be around people when I feel like this. I wonder if it was because I wore a wig and it made me a little bit nervous and uncomfortable because I’m not used to it? But the anxiety came after I took the wig off. I was feeling a bit self conscious because I definitely thought it looked fake even though I dulled the synthetic hair shine with some dry shampoo. The bangs are too long. I need to cut them. But that’s not really the point.
Maybe I just need to stop being an insecure little bitch. 😑