I just want a neck.
So, I’ve begun looking into getting a neck lift. I’ve looked into care credit which does cover it and have contacted several surgeons who take care credit. I’ve already heard back from several and plan to request virtual consultations. I don’t really have the luxury of driving to Charlotte or Denver whenever, considering my mom has to take me. When I get the best quote, I’ll apply for care credit. My credit rating is average, so I don’t see why I wouldn’t be accepted. I always pay my loans off early. I’m no slacker on that front. Let’s hope this works out. My neck is my main point of insecurity. It keeps me from getting out there. I always think people are judging me. Maybe they aren’t, I don’t know, but I am for sure judging myself. Hard. Losing weight doesn’t seem to make a difference in my quadruple chin. It’s just as bad as it ever was. My highest weight was 280-something pounds and I am now at about 215. It hasn’t made much of a noticeable difference in my neck.
I don’t expect perfection, I just want to have a neck again! An actual neck that isn’t hidden under fat! I want to feel better about myself. That’s all. I never saw a problem with cosmetic surgery if it makes someone feel better about themselves. Some people think it’s wrong, I think they’re being judgmental. It’s a personal choice. I think some people are literally mentally addicted to it and that’s not good, but that’s not the majority.
There are a couple things I’d like to have done, but I’ll write about that some other time.
My cataract surgery is Monday and I have to be there at 6am. Mom hates that but I’m not bothered. They do diabetics early in the morning. I’m looking forward to it and being able to see out of that eye.
Edit: ordered the first wig! As well as a lovely casual black bob wig. It was inexpensive thankfully. I’m using Klarna to pay it off.
Listening to: The Merry Thoughts – Pale Empress