Welp. I had a crisis at 5am and called mom. I cancelled the surgery. I did not go through with it. I guess I realized there are other options to lose weight and I don’t have to do something so drastic that will permanently change my body and life forever. I realized I wasn’t sure if I could follow through on that commitment, and those doubts alone were reason enough to not do it.
I’m looking into other types of diets and exercise. I’m looking at keto. I don’t know much about it but it seems like a lot of people are doing it. One thing I’m tired of is yoyo-ing, losing and gaining the same ten pounds over and over. I weigh 211.5 lb right now, it should not be too hard to get under 200. Realize that I used to be over 280. I’ve already lost a lot of weight. Everyone has been saying “you’ve lost so much weight, you look great!” And it’s reassuring. However, my weight seems to want to settle around 240-250 so I gotta be careful. I will start back on Ozempic again, since I had to stop it and cosentyx about a month before surgery. I’ll probably have to start from scratch again and increase the dosage little by little. It really did help though.
Another thing is hydration. I’ve been drinking a lot of water and electrolyte drinks and I do feel different and have noticed a big difference in my skin. Things heal better when you’re adequately hydrated I guess. I have a lot of scratches and bites from my abusive cat lol. The wounds stuck around for a long time when I was dehydrated, but once I started drinking more, they faded away. I have one of those big ass 64oz water bottles that have encouraging stuff written on them, haven’t used it yet but I’m going to.
I can feel my life going in a better direction already, that is being able to enjoy the foods I love in moderation and incorporating other healthier stuff and habits.
The first thing I did today when I went out was to go eat Chinese. Not the healthiest, but I hadn’t eaten solid food in over a week. I was about to crack 😂