I can’t believe how many cookbooks I’ve acquired over this short period of time. Yay for thrift stores! I swear I found like 3 for Chinese food alone. Even found a Cajun one. And one for nothing but CHEEEESE. *fatassthumbsup*

Ahem.

Last night I was in my bathroom and happened to look in the mirror. I thought “How grotesque you look.” and it made me really depressed. Everyone denies that I’m ugly, they say I’m “cute”, but that doesn’t convince me. I gained so much weight from depression eating….I can’t seem to stop. I can’t get it off. I can’t stick to a diet. Ugh. Why am I talking about this. I’ll stop.

I’m also regretting this permanent makeup. It makes me look more mature and I don’t like that. It doesn’t fit my personality. I just wanted it to open up my eyes and make them look bigger because I think they’re too small. I want to get it taken off somehow. What is wrong with me today =_=’ Complaining…I guess I’m just being extra critical of myself.

I’ll stop rambling now.