It’s Sunday, so I’m going to have dinner with my parents. Dad’s grilling burgers which are probably my favourite thing. Then mom told me he said he wants to use the grill as much as he can until he feels too bad to do it anymore. It’s heartbreaking.❤️🩹
I don’t know what to do, I am not dealing with this very well. I’m confused as shit because I don’t know what we’re looking at, or what’s going to happen.
My mom had cancer 22 years ago. I was terrified. One day she came in the door crying and I literally RAN downstairs while saying something like “I don’t want to know, don’t tell me!” Because it was obviously something bad. I thought one of my grandparents had died or something equally awful. I never expected cancer. As I mentioned before, she survived without having any radiation or chemotherapy. It was caught so early that a hysterectomy took care of it. She had a really thorough gynaecologist and I’ll be forever grateful to that guy.
My Pawpaw died in 2007. He had multiple myeloma for about 5 years. He had a fall at his house and went to the hospital. I expected him to come home in a few days. He died there a week later. It was so unexpected until a couple of days prior. He FELL. Didn’t break anything or really have any serious injuries. I didn’t understand why he needed a weeklong stay in the hospital. They put this breathing thing on him. I don’t really know what it actually was. He was breathing on his own. After a couple days with that mask, he stopped responding. His eyes shut permanently and died a couple days later. I still to this day don’t know exactly what killed him, and have had a grudge against the hospital because I always felt like that mask had something to do with it. His breathing became all ragged and “wet” sounding after he was on it. I may be completely off the mark and don’t know shit but whatever. His cod was complications from multiple myeloma, but…I don’t know. I’m scared of those stupid fucking oxygen breathing masks even now. Seeing one makes me so anxious…like I wanna puke.
Several friends have gone through cancer. One of them died.
Last time I checked, one in four people will have cancer at some point in their lifetime. It might be worse now, because those numbers are what I was told in junior high, which was eons ago…the odds of having a stroke are equally terrifying. I’ve had at least three TIAs myself, thankfully nothing huge. These things are too common. I feel like even though there have been so many breakthroughs in the medical field, people in the Western world are consuming things that probably shouldn’t enter the human body. Some of the dyes and other things in our food are straight up banned in other countries. Our junk food is terrible, but so many of us are more or less addicted, myself included. I don’t think it’s a moral failing on us as humans, it’s just what’s been advertised to us our whole lives. Once again, I might be speaking out of my ass. I’m not a scientist, I’m not that knowledgeable. I also think some of it is in-your-face obvious. Doesn’t take a Rocket Surgeon to put two and two together. Something clearly needs to change.
I’m specifically speaking about the US, because I live here but it probably applies elsewhere. Anyways….
I think I’ve written enough bullshit thoughts for now. Oscar is skitzing out, probably because he wants food. It’s 40 minutes too early. Please stop jumping on my goddam face and calm the fuck down. Honestly.
I did go to Roses to see if maaaaybe they restocked the shelving unit I desperately need. Of course they didn’t. Bleh. The similar ones on Amazon are twice as expensive. I’m going to have to take the hit, I guess 😅