I’m going to try getting off SSRIs. I have finally gotten the courage to do some reading about the long term effects, and ho-lee shit. I read other people’s experiences on a subreddit for depression meds. It sounds about the same as what I’m going through. It gives me a little hope that the damage won’t be permanent. Most people said it should clear up after a while and for some, it got worse before it got better. One that I take is sertraline. I am getting an appointment with my psychiatrist asap. I’m going to tell her I want off this destructive shit and that I never want to put it or any other SSRI in my body ever again. I will just refuse it. I’m an apathetic, angry zombie and it has been like this for years. That’s two other lovely side effects of these drugs. Wonderful, huh? I wish I’d never started on this crap. I can’t remember what I was like before I started taking SSRIs…did I even really need them? Having serious doubts about that. I was in Junior High when the Ritalin craze started, so of course half the kids at my school were on Ritalin, because if a kid acts like a kid normally does, they must have ADHD I didn’t need the Ritalin, and neither did 90% of the others. I’m wondering if I’m in a similar situation now. Did I need this? What would I be like if I weaned off just the SSRIs? I obviously need something to keep me slightly even keeled, but I deeply question if I need THAT destructive stuff. I wrote mom a long email about this. She never takes it seriously when I try to explain the memory loss and other cognitive issues. I hope she does now. I’ve been too scared to tell any medical professionals, because I’m afraid of what they might tell me.
lol sorry about the wall of text. Do I even know what paragraphs are?