Month: October 2025

Oh god I’m so relieved!! I thought I accidentally overdrew my account last night while paying off Affirm and Klarna bills. I really thought I was gonna wind up  $100-200 in the red! I went to the bank and they are so helpful. That’s why I love Telco. They do not get annoyed with me even though I misunderstand stuff and ask for help sometimes. The lady that helped me explained some things about the app that I just couldn’t understand for whatever dumb reason and assured me I wasn’t overdrawn. I have $143 left, actually and just used $100 of it to pay off half my credit card.

I’m using $20 to get a friggin buzz when Lauren comes to get me. My hair is driving me bonkers, it’s doing the thing where it forms a literal POINT on top of my head and it looks so stupid. I don’t know why that’s the default state of my hair once it grows out too much, and there’s no way to comb it down either. Can’t wait to be rid of that 😅

The vet assistant actually did have an emergency yesterday and that’s why she didn’t come pick up Oscar. I hope no animals were harmed. She’s supposed to be here to get him any time now. I just wanna put my jammies on and eat dinner but I’m having to wait. I need to be cozy in my jammies and eat my delicious chick-fil-a which is still in the bag.

Ah, she just came and took him. Shouldn’t take long, it’s just a sugar check. That reminds me I still need to get a sugar kit on Amazon. They’re made specifically for cats.

Im still pissed about the Albanese Joy Division shirt kerfluffle 😂 I wanna tell them how dumb they are (Sky News Australia I mean as well as commenters who bought the bullshit) but I hate hate HATE arguing on the internet. So, so much. I hate drama and never start it myself, ever.

Anyhoo

Mom was driving me home Sunday night, and one of my favourite songs came on. “Richard Hung Himself” by D.I., a punk band. The song is from 1983 and played a big part in the soundtrack to the movie Suburbia. She said “Richard hung himself?! I thought I was hearing it wrong until I saw the title!” It was funny, guess you had to be there 😅 I explained the song and she wasn’t offended or anything lol. My mom is 75 and we listen to my music together almost every day. I swear this woman has been exposed to far more music than most 75 year old moms. She says she likes the majority of what I play, mostly the goth stuff. That’s pretty cool. She’s 75, but she’s what I would call a rocker, even though she looks nothing like that. I’m really hoping she’ll wear the super cool T-shirts I’m getting her for Christmas, even though they have short sleeves. I got her a very subtle Wednesday Addams shirt that says “I don’t evolve, I cocoon.” She likes the Addams Family, but I really got it because of the cocoon reference. Every day when she drives me home, I say “Go home and cocoon.” 😬 That’s what we call putting on a blanket and curling up on the couch, which is her favourite part of the day lol. I still haven’t entirely decided on dads shirts. Mom is getting that one, The Beatles, and Queen. Dad is getting “I have rabies” and…lmao I forgot which ones I had in mind besides that. I get stupider by the day, I swear. Maybe I should get him a Queen shirt as well, all three of us are Queen fans so I know he’d like it. Hmmm

So Friday is Hallowe’en/Samhain. We go out to eat on Friday nights, but I don’t know if we’ll go anyplace special. I’m really hoping I see kids trick or treating on the streets rather than those stupid “Trunk or Treats” they have at Churches,  because I feel like churches killed Halloween at least around here! I feel resentment for that. Even if they’re just trick or treating at the stores in downtown, at least they’re out. Nobody goes house to house anymore, which I find depressing. It also makes me feel so thankful that I did most of my growing up in the 90s when trick or treating was normal. I usually had a friend with me and even though we were young, my parents gave us space and lagged quite a distance behind, while still keeping their eyes on us. It was a wonderful experience as a kid and was SO different than it is now. Kids go out only in the daylight now, and sometimes not even on Hallowe’en, which is just lame. The city council determines when the stores hand out candy 🙄 No such thing when I was a kid, and we always went out ON Hallowe’en, didn’t matter if we had school the next day. We also went out towards dusk and stayed out probably until 9 or 10pm. People seem to be allergic to that kind of fun now. It’s more fun in the dark 😸 I’m so glad I had a normal, non-sterilised experience. I did wind up in a church one Hallowe’en though, which was a godawful experience 😂 I wrote about that at some point. They also didn’t give us candy. Today, that experience would probably count as some kind of child abuse 🤣 haha

Oscar just got back and I have to reduce his insulin to 1.5 units, which can’t be done with a lantus pen. I am not yet comfortable with syringes. I’m scared I’d accidentally give him too much and kill my own cat. The vet assistant told me which kind to buy at Walmart and said she’d stop by tomorrow and show me exactly how to use it. It sucks to not use the lantus pen anymore because it was so simple. I’m afraid I’ll have to buy insulin as well, because it’s about $100 for one bottle even though it lasts for months. That means I’ll have to make more claims on his insurance. I haven’t even made the first claim yet because I have to make a video and I’m scared I’ll say something wrong and they’ll deny me. I’m asking Lauren to help me do that tomorrow. She’s very proactive and structured and I love that about her. Makes my life so much easier, and even better, more productive. Doing things I’ve been meaning to do for a while but procrastinated on. Anyhow when I got his insurance I had no clue that making a claim would require a video and various other things, which is something that should have been disclosed! Ahhh I don’t wanna. But I must.

Well, I’m finally in my jammies and under a blanket and my delicious magic chicken sandwiches await me. Have a good one, internet.




I just got done paying off all my debt I could. I’m afraid I might have overdrawn, I hope not. All the charges are listed in my banking app. I once again don’t know if the pending charges are included in my balance. That irks the hell out of me. I’m definitely not going to be able to pay off that credit card. I think I’ll pay $50 into it monthly instead of $25, so it’ll be paid off in three months rather than six. I also owe mom that $200.

All this money stuff confuses me. But to be fair, everything confuses me.

I canceled my physical therapy appointment for today. I don’t see the point, and I’ve never put much stock into it. My insurance will only pay for a few visits anyway, so I don’t see any reason to bother with it. My arms and neck are getting worse, unfortunately for me.




I just saw a video in which some politician (Albanese I think?) wore a fucking Joy Division shirt and some morons are giving him grief about it because of their name.




BIG SHRIMPIN’! 😬

He’s become fond of that white shirt, been sleeping on it for a week.

 

 


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Well, I got $1450 from my uncle, thank god. I’ve paid off some things already. I can’t feel happy about it though, because mom just acted a fool today. I did too, but she acted so damn petulant because we had to run back to the bank because we both forgot something important. Like…just because you don’t want to do something doesn’t mean you don’t need to! She’s been around and has infinitely more life experience than I have, so I would think she would understand that??? Apparently not, I guess. The thing was my banking app was messed up and has been since I applied for a loan with them. They fixed it in three minutes. If I couldn’t access the app to see how much I have and how much I’ve spent so far, it’s gonna be difficult to pay my debt!! I dunno…she had a hissy fit when I said oh crap we need to go back, then angrily pulled out of the parking space, gritting her teeth and was acting like a goddam toddler. I was like “What is your freaking problem?!” And we had a huge argument. I swear, this woman can take an absolutely wonderful thing and suck the joy right out of it. It’s fucking pitiful. I do not understand why she acts like this. Sometimes we get along, this was not one of those days.

The vet assistant who was supposed to pick Oscar up around 5:30 never showed up. Called and got the “we’re closed right now and will open blah blah blah” message. I don’t know if she forgot or had some kind of emergency. I hope not an emergency! That’s never good. I guess I’ll call them tomorrow. She was supposed to come here, take him to the vet (which is literally 500 ft from where I live) check his sugar and bring him back. I had him in the carrier, waiting…no call or anything.

I am in such a bad freakin mood now. 🫩



*watching trip reports on YouTube*

Oh goody, a Datura story! I love those. I have never heard anyone speak of a positive Datura trip. They always sound fucking terrible! WHY do people fuck with this plant, I mean who wants to ingest something nicknamed “hells bells”?! 😅

This particular guy saw a black hole in his ceiling which he thought would suck him in, something about swimming in black goo of varying viscosities, and finding his clothing in the freezer, mattress in the kitchen, and ham on the wall after the trip subsided.

But the scariest thing was the wasted ham. 😱

I watched one a while back about a 11 or 12 yo boy who unknowingly drank tea made from the aforementioned “hells bells” (I think his older brother made it or something), tripped balls, went out into the woods and wandered around in a stupor all night. Sometime the next day, he stumbles out of the woods, super confused. His parents were freaking out, of course. Kid was basically unknowingly dosed, which sucks!

 I will never understand why some people do it again and again. Like “that was horrible, gimme more of this shit” 😂

It’s funny how a person like myself, who has precisely ZERO interest in ever doing any of these drugs, loves so much to hear about other people doing those drugs. I used to read drug stories people submitted on a site called “userstories”. That site is long gone, probably for 15 or so years now. It was so entertaining, I really miss sites like that.

Dad did ALL the drugs back in the early 80’s while in the military and told me his stories about LSD and other crazy shit, maybe that’s why it interests me so much 🧐

Welp, gonna go watch the rest of the video. I rambled again haha




I’m not even mad, just amused because at least my continuing misfortune is kinda funny this time. And my mom is, in fact, not going to love it. If she’s buying something and the total rings up to $6.66, she’ll buy something else to not have to pay that amount. This has happened at least twice in recent memory, and one cashier at a Dollar General said other people occasionally do the same thing 😂

Edit: she answered with “oh no!!” 😬




I still can’t qualify for the loan because of how little I make. Closing a credit card as well as two hard pulls on my credit has wrecked my score. It went down 80 god damn points. Closing the card knocked it down 18 points. The hard pulls though…I don’t understand why having your credit checked destroys your fuckin score. How does that even make sense? What is the logic of that? What the fuck, man…

Mom’s going to apply for the loan herself, at her own bank. If she gets it, I’ll just give her the money every month. I am so angry about this. I’m hoping my score will bounce back to what it was in a few months…I hope I hope. I don’t understand why, but my credit score gives me such anxiety. Is that normal? Or am I coocoo bonkers obsessive…😕

My individual support Karen, who I mention here often, got fired for the stupidest fucking thing ever. Her offense was something that warranted a write up or warning. What did she do? She bought one of her clients cigarettes. CIGARETTES! How did the powers that be even find out about this? SOME PIECE OF SHIT NARC’D. Who the fuck else even knew about that and why did they feel the need to tattle like a lil bitch? Absolute cuntiness. 🫩 Now theres only one individual support left, and that’s my old buddy Denise. The kindest thing they could do is pair us up again. She must be working hard, because she’s gonna get a few of Karen’s people.

Karen did say we could still do stuff and go places even though it’s not her job anymore. She also has promised to “step up” if something ever happens to mom. It is comforting to hear that and I really hope we don’t lose touch again. I’m awful at texting people cuz I never have anything interesting to say 😓

I keep thinking “I need to write about this thing!” but I always forget what the hell it was. I had other things to say, dammit!




I feel sort of productive today! Well, technically yesterday. Lauren showed me how to use the washer and dryer and we realised how smart those things are. I had no idea. Anyways, now I can wash my clothes whenever I want. 👌 We then went to Outback because I really had a hankering for Aussie cheese fries. All in all, a very nice day!



This cat’s breath is a freakin war crime. It’s written in the Geneva conventions…somewhere 😅

It smells SO bad. Anytime he opens his pie hole, it whacks me in the face like a sledgehammer. Definitely the new wet food regimen.

Please send help.

Edit: because.