Me complaining under the cut.
I thought I was getting better, but I got worse last night. I hurt so bad. I got sick also ☹️ I really thought that part was over with! Today has been pretty bad, so much so that I asked mom if we could eat at her house instead of going out. It was preferable anyhow, it’s Independence Day and what would it be without some grilled burgers? Being at their house for a while made me feel somewhat better. I wasn’t feeling so great mentally either. This stomach bug that’s going on for two weeks now is really wearing on me. It’s making me crabby and angry.
Why do people have to bring their lame fucking politics into everything? Literally everything. Even the most unrelated things. Like, for example, palaeontology. Fucking FOSSILS. What the FUCK does that have to do with your political views???? I just wanted to watch a video about some motherfuckin’ dinosaurs. People in the comments can’t help themselves. I swear, it’s actually pathetic. I don’t know how on earth they managed to insert politics into a video about fossils, but in these people’s minds, it somehow makes sense. This shit is why I NEVER EVER push my beliefs onto anyone else!! I know how fucking grating and annoying it is! I don’t even talk about it unless someone asks me what I think…with very few exceptions. Even then, it’s just a short blurb on my blog. I hate peopling. I really do. It’s no fucking wonder I stay away from them. 😣 So many of people are just insufferable. They don’t know how to act. I know I’m not supposed to hate people because it’s wrong. I pray every night not to feel that for anyone or genuinely wish them dead. I don’t want to act like they do. This mindset they have is so alien to me, I absolutely cannot relate or see where they’re coming from. I used to be able to do that easily most of the time, but these people are out of their damn minds by a magnitude. They might as well be aliens to me. Being autistic, I always felt like the alien, but that’s done a 180 in the last ten or so years. I know the craziest ones are almost always the loudest, but damn. Can’t you stop bringing your unrelated political nonsense into EVERYTHING? I go to YouTube and other sites to get away from that stuff, as do lots of other people.
It wasn’t just that one video, it was many others. I won’t even get into the nasty anti-theists I see all the time. They can’t just NOT be jerks, it seems. 🥴
What I need to do is control my compulsion to read comments. It’s as bad as doomscrolling.
The anniversary of when I was supposed to have weight loss surgery is coming up and I’m feeling really down about it. I keep thinking of how much healthier and how much better I’d be feeling had I not listened to mom. It weighs me down, the regret. So depressing…