Dammit, it’s back. The breathing thing that hasn’t happened in years. My breathing is sort of laboured. Every breath feels like it has to be a deep one, but that’s impossible and I get anxious when I can’t get a deep.breath. The anxiety seems to exacerbate it. This time, sitting upright doesn’t help at all. It lasted about two weeks the past two times it happened. I hope it doesn’t last longer. It’s awful. I have to wonder if there’s a deeper problem that’s causing it. As far as I know, I don’t have asthma or anything similar. I’m making a note to talk to my doctor about it. For the past week, I’ve had to take an extra Ativan every day, which helps a bit. That indicates to me that anxiety is playing a part in it, but I’m not a doctor. This stresses me the fuck out because having a permanent breathing problem is one of my biggest fears. I couldn’t imagine living with that.
The allergen spray I bought is working great, I haven’t had a bad attack since I started using it. I sent the link to my mom because dad has terrible allergies and I thought it could help them too. They have a dog, maybe her dander is getting to them. We would never give up our animals, no matter how bad the allergies are. Just gotta find a way around it. I’d be itchy all over, half blind and full of snot, but I still wouldn’t give up Oscar. I’m just happy I found that spray! I had seen an ad for something called Pacagen which is specifically for cat allergies. I found it on Amazon but it was $80 (dayum!) so I had to find an alternative.
My Ray Bans are definitely fake. I told the seller I needed to make a return because they didn’t fit my face, which isn’t true. I just didn’t want to get into an argument about them being fakes. They offered me bigger frames for $15! If those were Ray Bans, that would not be remotely sustainable for the seller. I should have known, but yeah. I’m not the brightest crayon in the box, as I’ve said many times. 😅 I want to get a pair that are the same as my old ones. EBay is not helping me. I got the old ones for much less because the arm was pretty damaged. I didn’t think it was very noticeable though. I might try one last thing to fix them. I’ll use a lighter to melt the broken ends and bond them back together. No clue if that will work, but it’s worth a try I guess. I’m stuck on Wayfarers from the eighties because they have a certain look I prefer. They’re glossy all over, the others have that matte textured shit I don’t like. I like em shiny.