Ugh…I don’t feel good…had kind of a rough night. I’m still feeling bad and hopeless about the surgery I didn’t have. My anxiety is a lot worse. I have no drive. I’m just bummed out and want to cry all the time. I don’t know what to do anymore.
Anyhoo…what do I do when I’m depressed? I buy shit. Yes, I absolutely have an addiction. I was going to talk to my therapist about it but…do I really want to stop? It’s the only thing that seems to give me any kind of gratification. I know buying things to feel better is just a bandaid, I’m well aware of that. I know I have to treat the underlying problem. I’m trying to get my meds tweaked next week when I see my psychiatrist. I’m trying to get the Provigil prescription also. I can only hope the Genesight test was right and changing meds dramatically will help me.
Listening to: The Mission – Wasteland