Month: March 2024

I actually sat down and watched a movie tonight. Two actually. I have been in this same stupid routine for the past almost five years. Wake up, go out, come home, sleep for hours, eat something small, take shower, go to bed and watch videos on my phone, sleep fitfully. Absolutely stuck in that routine and could not break out of it. I lost motivation to do much of anything, really. The past week or so has been different. I came home one afternoon and played games. I was shocked I did that instead of sleeping. I did that again the next day and worked on a diy jewelry project until my neck hurt so bad I had to stop. Today, I did sleep when I came home, but to my credit, I was literally falling over tired for whatever reason. I woke up and decided out of the blue that I wanted to watch a movie.

I picked one I hadn’t seen in well over 15 years and went to the game room, got comfy and popped it in the blu-ray player. The movie was ‘Pulse’, which was an American remake of a Japanese (I think?) movie. I remember it scaring me so bad I had a panic attack back then, but this time I was able to enjoy it. I’m not sure why people tend to think of it as a bad movie. Not every Western remake of Asian horror movies is bad! People (critics lol) say ‘The Grudge’ is terrible but I love that movie. And that’s why I ignore critics’ opinions.

Then I decided to watch another one, ‘Smile’, which is one of the best newer horror movies I’ve seen. It was good to watch it a second time. It’s getting a sequel later this year around spooky season and I’m excited for it.

I’m proud of myself for finally breaking out of this awful years-long rut.

Now I’m tucked in bed and I’m gonna watch my usual videos on YouTube 😊 Good night, internet!


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GAH.

Ya know, for once I feel good enough to sit down and play a game. That’s rare. I always go right to sleep when I get home. So I sit down on my ass, all excited, and pop my game in. This is an old ps2 game I bought second hand in 2016. I’m all excited to play and then I realize, oh my god, the controls are backward or something! What is wrong with it? I look it up and realize that in some older games, the character will only move/walk in the direction relative to where they’re facing using the up or down button, which is ANNOYING AS FUCK, because it’s hard to get them facing perfectly forward or whatever and they keep running into walls and shit. I don’t think I described that right but whatever. I never make any sense. The first time I tried playing it in 2016, I wondered what the fuck was wrong with the controller. I can’t get anywhere substantial. I got so annoyed, I paused and came on here to complain about it. I don’t remember having this problem back when I used to play before, probably because I mostly played mostly 2D fighting, racing and platformers/metroidvanias where you could only go forward and backwards (you can backtrack and go any direction in metroidvanias tho, I might be full of shit with these descriptions because I’m not particularly eloquent) Which is something I still prefer, 3D games always gave me trouble. I love some 3D games now because now you can easily move the character any fucking way you want. I still have a little trouble but I still play them. But the older ones are a true pain in the ass. Silent Hill 2 is the same way, it is soooo hard to play. I have not beat it after all this time. I mostly watched my friend play it when I was younger, because I didn’t have a ps2 console at that time (got one a short while after that) and lived vicariously through her. It’s weird how I always liked to watch either dad (I liked to watch him play DOOM on the pc specifically when I was a little kid, he started me on the horror stuff early) or my friends play games, I would just sit next to them, watching closely and making the occasional comment. I really enjoyed that. Maybe I should kidnap my friend and make her play it haha

I’m really looking forwards to the Silent Hill 2 remake for this reason, it will be 23424 times easier to play! I’m planning on a ps5 soon, with the money I get back from my Self loan (a credit building thing where you pay monthly and get most of the money back when you’re done, it’s like $700) I’m halfway through it now.

I also lost the original controller to my ps2, maybe I need to go on Ebay and get a Dualshock. Or to Infinity Gaming. I also dislike having an off-brand controller because I’m snotty like that. XD

Also it was hot in my game room even though the fan was on and I got sweaty and that pissed me off.

Anyhow I just thought I’d hop on here and complain about stuff no one cares about lolz

Edit: Tank controls. That’s what they’re called. Glad they went the way of the dodo. No wonder I didn’t really like 3D games back then. I couldn’t fucking PLAY THEM worth a shit. Guess I’ll have to become more acclimated to that type of controls and use them more…because I have completely forgotten how to use them…if I don’t do something like every day I forget how to do it and have to get used to it AGAIN. I obviously used them as a kid but now I’m old and confused…blah


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