I wish I had a best friend. A ride-or-die. I don’t have anyone like that in my life and never really have. I thought at one point that I had a best friend but it was actually a toxic relationship that effectively squashed my self esteem. It would be nice to have someone who I could confide about anything in. I barely trust anyone so that would be…amazing. I never really trusted most of my friends because they would go through all my stuff even though I asked them not to, I mean my sketchbooks, my computer files, everything. I have really strong boundaries because of that, no one is allowed in my personal things unless I specifically give them permission and that never happens. No one is allowed to use my laptop but me. No one can see my sketchbook unless I decide they can. The trust is just gone.
I built up walls around myself taller than the ones in Attack on Titan 😆 No one has tried to breach them and I don’t know if anyone ever will.
sigh. Just thinking about this after seeing a video about friendship on YouTube…made me feel sad.
Aww 🥺 I’m sorry to hear but totally understand the feeling. I don’t have a social life really and find it hard making friends as an adult. I know I’m a random on the internet but if you ever wanna chat lemme know 😁
I’d love to chat sometime. Thank you for the kind comments ❤️❤️
I have only one person I trust and it’s my girlfriend. I was so wounded by various people. I understand the feeling.
Tho if you ever wanted to talk about stuff, I am here :> I would love to actually.
I’m sorry that you went through the same thing. Those wounds run deep, don’t they? 😔
Would love to talk more about it sometime. ❤️