Month: February 2023

I had my physical today and my new doctor is so much more thorough and acts like she gives a damn. I was told I have anemia, a “blood discrasia (sp?)” and am being referred to a hematologist, who are also oncologists (yikes) because my red blood cells are off in size, shape and volume. Also my platelets are high, which she said probably contributed to the TIA (mini stroke) I had years ago. My last doctor never mentioned any of this shit to me, except that I was slightly anemic, that’s it. Nothing else.

She said it does explain why I feel the way I do, all the time. It’s been particularly bad the past few weeks. I feel like weights are dragging me down. It’s so hard to get out of bed, and my eyes are so heavy and sometimes I can’t even keep them open.

I can’t use my cpap machine when I sleep due to this sudden silicone allergy which actually blistered and scarred my face…hopefully not permanently…🥺

Called the cpap company and got these two goobers on the phone who were too stupid, or just didn’t care enough, to do their job. They were like “oh we‘ll just send you another mask, that one should work”. That mask will be made of silicone too. Same kind I already have. Do these doofuses know what an allergy is? Tried to explain but it did not compute. Like, I know you don’t actually give a shit but DO YOUR DAMN JOB, ffs.

No relief whatsoever.

Anyway, the thing with my blood is making me super nervous. That can be a sign of cancer. That’s one of my biggest fears, considering there’s an awful lot of it in moms side of the family….mom had it and survived thank god, grandpa had it and passed away from complications, great grandma died of it, uncle currently has it in remission etc 😥

I shouldn’t be worried about this but I am a bit of a hypochondriac…



My emails aren’t sending. Gmail isn’t working and I tried emailing mom with the mail.com app and she never answered. Could it be my phone?

I’ve felt too crappy to do much of anything today, didn’t go out for dinner with my parents, just kind of laid in bed and had nightmares because I didn’t take my morning meds. I felt really depressed and dysphoric because of that.

I hope tomorrow will be better 😅



I can’t tell if the antibiotic is helping my ear infection. I’ve been on it for a week or so, I would think I’d feel a noticeable difference.

I had an allergic reaction to my new cpap mask. The area around my nose is so fucked up. I guess now I have a silicone allergy. Great. 👍

This last month has just sucked. Sorry for being negative but that’s what a fucking blog is for. Complaining. 🤷‍♀️



Ahhh

I was adding stuff to my ideas note in Google keep on my phone and accidentally trashed the note 😣 freaking panicked!! That note is very, very long and the product of about 1.5-2 years of thoughts and ideas for one of my future online comics. I got it back though, but not before soiling myself out of sheer terror. I have very poor memory and it’s very important that I write this stuff down, or I’ll just forget it. Ideas don’t stay in my head for very long.

 The note started to glitch a bit at the bottom, as if it didn’t want me to add any more text, so I made a second one.

eek.




I thought I couldn’t get ill more than two times in one month. Surely not. I now have an ear infection! Literally one or two days after I get rid of the food poisoning, an earache appears. I went to the doc because if it’s an infection, I’m gonna knock it out ASAP because I am done with this shit. So now I’m on an antibiotic and it still hurts but I’m hoping it’ll stop soon.

I went to Red Fox Gaming and spent waaay more than I intended. There was a Sonic game I didn’t already own (that I didn’t know existed) and I have very poor impulse control. :\ I also got a couple other games. They’re all pre-owned of course, I can’t usually spend $$ on brand new games.

Oooh I filled an icon request and I like how they came out. Take a look. It’s the latest 8 of them.