Month: February 2021

Went out for Japanese last night, it was yummy. One thing though…there was a guy there who couldn’t keep his pants up. He literally could not. I saw his whole ass 30+ times. The whole thing. No underwear. He was going in and out of the place over and over, I don’t know what the hell he was doing. He had a screaming kid too. Invest in a belt, dude.

Oh yes, I bought an old Dreamcast and four games! I have such fond memories of my Dreamcast. It quit working around 2007-ish.



Went out with good peer support girl today, had a great time! Thank God! ๐Ÿ˜€ I was so happy to see her again.

I got a new domain for my main collective, aloneinkyoto.net, which I actually owned about 10 or more years ago. I know people are probably tired of me changing my domains though >_>; At least I usually redirect them instead of just letting the link go dead, I guess XD I didn’t do that for celestial.nu and kind of regret it.




OMG! I am rid of peer support girl! They are assigning me back to my previous person! I am so relieved.

Otherwise, I have to go to my normal doctor on Monday. This swollen lymph node and ear infection aren’t getting any better, even after being bombarded with drops, and two different antibiotics. If anything, it’s gotten worse. I’m really starting to worry about this. Mom thinks I have something called “TMJ” which happens when someone grinds their teeth too much, which I do, and it can lock your jaw shut. I’m hoping they’ll go ahead and x-ray my damn head or whatever because I’m getting sick of this.

She’s making me get a Covid test before I come in, which makes me really nervous. I’m not sick, but what if it comes back positive? I’d have to self-isolate for two weeks and that would wreak havoc on my mental health and I might actually wind up in the hospital again. So yeah. It’s not that easy or simple for some people.




These Haribo Twin-Snake gummies are tasty but they smell like feet



Well, I went out with peer support girl today, entirely against my will… I was in pain because of the swollen lymph node in my jaw and was grumpy and tired. We went to eat someplace even though she obviously doesn’t like taking me to eat. We got into a small argument over me getting an alcoholic drink, she said I couldn’t because of company rules and I commented that that is stupid, but I didn’t get my drink. Anyhow after a back and forth, I wound up telling her she’s not as fun as previous girl and she said “I’m NOT previous girl” and I said “I KNOW.” Then she was like “Be miiiiiiindful of your speeeech” and I said “Oh God, with the MINDFUL again. Here we goes.” and put my head in my hands because FUCK she’s annoying. She got all weepy and I was like Oh God, whatever I don’t care anymore.

Things calmed down from there. Also mom had spoken to her about the handwashing thing and she said she would wash them, but I don’t really care now because she’s getting switched. She can go be nasty in someone else’s house.

Also she has the worst taste in music I have ever heard. Boring as fuck. I can’t stand when she has the music on in her car, she listens to Youtube playlists and I never know what horrible thing will come on next. It’s like Russian roulette.

I just do not deal well with overly sensitive people. I really don’t. It may sound like I’m the mean one, but YOU DO NOT KNOW THIS PERSON.

I should also mention I have never had a problem with any of my past peer supports, and I’ve had a bunch over the years. She’s the only one.




Went to an Urgent Care again Saturday. It was a different one than last time. I saw a different doc and he says I have a swollen lymph node on my jaw. It hurts like a bitch! He put a steroid shot in my arm and put me on prednisone for 10 days, hoping that’ll knock it out. I could feel some minor improvement after the steroid shot. He didn’t address my f’d up arm though, I might have to go back. Urgent Care is way easier than getting an appointment with my actual doctor. She won’t see me in person and it’s super annoying.



Omg! Mom booked a house at the beach for July 7-14th! It is BEAUTIFUL. It sits right on the beach and there’s a sea bird estuary right in front of it, and a LIGHTHOUSE about 200 yards away. I will be taking so many photos. This is a big deal because I haven’t been on a vacation in 4 years and I need this SO BADLY. This is in Tybee Island, Georgia, a place I’ve never gotten to visit before. I guess we’ll take a trip to Savannah too! I’m excited!




I got my PS4 yesterday! I was trying to set it up and my phone rang, it was peer support girl. I didn’t answer because I was busy and why is she calling so late? I sometimes ignore her calls because she calls at stupid times when I’ve previously asked her not to call me, and I might be a little bit of an asshole too. Hmm. Anyways, a few minutes later she shows up at my door and proceeds to bug me for about a half hour. I was paranoid of the hand-washing thing and cringed when she touched my stuff. Now I feel like I need to wipe everything down with a clorox wipe. >_>; I swear I had terrible anxiety about her pee-hands being on my stuff as I was trying to sleep last night. I’m a huge germophobe and that’s a nightmare scenario. I think she’s one of those “BuT i DoN’t WaNt To WaSh ThE gOoD bAcTeRiA oFf” people. I’m sorry for rambling on about this and her, but like I said, I had terrible anxiety and need to vent it out. I know I might sound like a super bitch but…that’s what a fucking blog is for, isn’t it? ๐Ÿ˜

Anyhoo. PS4 is awesome. Played some Soulcalibur (Kilik ♥) and called it a night. I got some games for my 3DS which I can’t freaking find and a couple of cartridges for my mini Genesis, which I also haven’t yet found.

I unpacked all my books (yes, I’m just getting around to doing this lol) and started some on the movies.

Wash your goddam hands.




I am starting to suspect peer support girl doesn’t wash her hands when she uses the bathroom. I usually let her use my guest bathroom (this girl pees A LOT), so this grosses me out majorly. So today I took my “Wash your hands ya filthy animal” sign from the master bathroom and put it in there. I hope this will get my point across.

She doesn’t think I can do anything on my own. She has asked twice now if my mom gives me my money. No, I have my own income, thanks. She asked if I have a payee. No, I do not. After I bought a pair of sunglasses, she asked how my mom feels when I “buy extra things”. My mother’s feelings about my buying a pair of cheap sunglasses is not relevant, because it is my money. I have no agency according to her. Once again treating me as someone who is mentally diminished. I am not.




I went to an Urgent Care tonight for this stupid ear ache! It started as a jaw pain a month or two ago and gradually went to my ear. It hurts but they called in some eardrops for me which I can pick up tomorrow. She said it should start working for the pain within the same day. I missed the superbowl completely tonight. At least I got wings and chips & dip!